Sunday, July 23, 2006
the beginning pf the end

I’ve decided to start this blog with 3 poems I’ve writen which I think makes no sense. Hahaha I’m not much of a writer just someone trying to live life and be happy. So in a short note I am a love sick person, someone who wants love but is to afraid of rejection. Hahaha isn’t everyone… but anyway no one should take me seriously… it’s kind of weird though…when people talk about all those others who are paranoid and make up stuf to make them feel good…I end up wondering if I’m like that…which most probably I am…but still I’d like to think a little bit of my life isn’t a lie…not something I made up…that some people really care…Hahaha I got off tracked so anyway getting on with the poems…

poem: 1

Waiting for the rain to pass
Seeing you smile through a glass
Broken by sadness, being ashamed
Of the feeling reflected in them

Wishing it was still that time
Hopeing to change my emotions
To forget all my wants and desires
All my toughts and cazy dilusions

Knowing the past was gone
As you closed your eyes and moved away
Wanting so much to say I love you
But knew you didn’t feel the same

So in this darkness I’ll close my eyes as well
atleast forgeting this stupidity
As my tears burn my heart slowly
Not letting it flow freely

It was ment for someone else
My box wraped in lace
The one with wooden shingles
The thing I hid away

You took, without a word
And opened it in secret
laughed at it’s content
when thought it was disfigure

but what you didn’t know was that
it was also ment for you
Before you you stabed me in the back
It was my heart that used to love you

poem:3

in the moment of you embrace
a feeling of love was all I could trace
and I believed you, I was a fool
to think that you could love me the way I did you

so why did you hold me so tight
when it ment nothing to you
and then you said we'd be together
but I guess all that wasn't true

but still thingking it was ment for me
still wishing it would last for eternity
but knowing in my heart it was a lie
slowly broke my soul and all I had left was your smile

so yan yung mga gawa ko sory nalang if i bothered you with my stupid stuff pero it was nice to write it here...hahaha hope it was not that bad though...but it probably was :P