Thursday, August 17, 2006
mahabang usapan..this is a warning

grabe its a strange these past few days...daming nang yari (yung iba ibang time pero with connection with the present kaya nilagay ko nalang)

0. may nakilala akong tao...not sure kung dapat sabihin ko yung pangalan :-/ kaya hindi nalang :)) hehe naguguluhan ako...pero happy rin... haha labo

1. got all the grades na(...i dont think i deserved any of them but hell i got them anyway)

2. filipino monologo(...just froze while in front...am a big loser)

3. people today seemed to rub in my face just how much of a loser i am (really, i just may be paranoid)

4. did a stupid thing..as in really stupid (yesterday) and still feel really bad about it

5. internet connection died yesterday and was a bit pissed but that's the way God decided to spin my strings so, went with the flow..

6. had the cha-cha thing...im sorry i didn't listen much... was at the back..and got pissed at the first guy coz it was in taglish..and that (im sory to say because it was supposed to be serious bussiness) made me feel really anoyed. if you speak english go all the way with it and if tagalog go all the way to...this mostly applyes to super serious bussiness like the chacha fo the philippines.---kontradicting ang sinasabi ko dito pero note hindi serioso yung akin..well kindi off...haha kaya pwede taglish...

7. played hangman with amor the 2nd and 3rd speaker..(im so sorry...coz now that i think about it i should have listend..i must sound like a really bad person right now...)

8. nag groupings sa PE

9. felt bad for many reasons and felt glad for many as well...so parang nutral na malungkot...gets?

that is basicaly my life since i last wrote...hahaha hindi lahat pero basicaly nga. yung iba ieexpoundan ko (if that's even a word >:) kaya if natatamad na kayo okay lang sakin :D understandable kasi yung susunod na ay filled with my anoying comments :)) as if hindi pa puno na ito ng aking thoughts..haha stupid, blog nga diba? ano paba ito but thoughts ko? haha. Nabasa ko sa isang blog na nag susulat siya kasi isip niya magaling siya sa English (magaling nga pero iba ang point ko) kasi napaisip ako non...bakit pa ako nagsusulat? eh hindi naman ako magaling sa English? o sa pag sulat? hindi nga ako nagaling mag salita eh? why am i sharing my selfish thoughts? i still don't know why kaya i'll keep on writing kasi... well feel ko lang (ayy ang selfish) anyway ito na....dum dum dum duuummm

0. wow i learned na ang open ko sa ym..hmmm di ba dapat baligtad yon? haha well baligtad nga naman ako. alam mo ba (if your reading this) nagalit sakin kuya ko >:) hinahog ko daw ang comp (which is true non) pero na sisiyahan talaga ako kaya di ako nag ofline...hehehe >:) anyway hope i don't sound phsyco-is hehe ( i probably do) ...at wow dapat pala mag pasalamat ako kay angel...siya kasi (if i remember correctly, baka mali rin...kasi super forgetful ko talaga) yung nag pa online sakin regularly. dati kasi never ako mag online hahaha eh one thing led to another patapos nag online na ako halos araw araw...at dahil umalis na rin sister ke ay marami narin akong oras sa computer.

1 . i dont deserve my grades, kasi kahit for some na super talino ay there not that great isip ko their too good for me...hmmm... di ako gaano nag aral...kaya those na nag aral talaga ay mas deserving na makuha yon...kaya i feel guilty for getting them..hindi rin mataas but i thought i deserved lower for some. ito mga grades ko yung may T_T=don't deserve at ^_^ =happy
@_@ = nag cheat ba ako? at .... = i deserve it at :( = sad. okay ito na
......................................FIL = 88 @_@ ^_^x100
......................................AP = 79 .... :(
......................................ENG = 90 T_T ^_^
......................................CHEM = 94 T_T ^_^
......................................ENVI = 88 ^_^
......................................GEOM= 95 @_@ T_T :(
......................................ALG = 98 ^_^
......................................CLE = 82 ^_^ x100 T_T x100
note: para lang sa mga taong nag sasabi ng wheee kapag sinasabi ko na mababaako sa isang subject...WAG NGA KAYO GANYAN!!!(sorry i can take it naman pero if you can please wag lang over) masaki talaga!! tao rin ako nag kakamali (minsan bobng mali talaga..note#4...) at especially masakit yon kasi alam ko na doon lang ako nakaka line of nine patapos super takot ako maka line of 8 kasi parang sinasabi non na wala na talaga akong skills sa kahit ano...alam ko na na hindi talaga ako super sa isang bagay(di katulag ng iba) kaya ito lang pag-asa ko...(super, ako ang pinaka bobo sa family... kung hindi na yon preasure idagdag mo pa ang mga over achievers na classmates ko...ps it's not a bad thing amazed nga ako sainyo eh)

2. sorry steph di ko nagamit yung mga sinugets mo na panic ako sa harap..thank God walang nakinig sakin...nakakahiya talaga ako non...at steph galing mo :D grabe sooo at awe and wonder (tama ba yung pag gamit :)) hindi ko na tiningnan grade ko kasi I'm paying to God na sana mag karoon ng miracle at...well sana lang maawa sakin si miss lala (can't seem to remember her name hehe sorry)

3. a. si alysa ba pumunta sakin at nag usap tungkol sa cartooning and how it was so much fun!!! patapos she asked me talaga what was my club and why i didn't join cartooning...did she not hear me the 1st and 2nd time i ans those questions before? or is she just forgetful/ boutsful? yes di nga ako pumasa sa cartooning at that was a really bad week (pero thanks rosa :) for me kasi hindi ako pumasa sa finance at hindi rin nakuha yung rides at di rin ako pumasa ng cartooning...lahat ng tinry ko ay di ako pumasa...rejection na talaga yon...if i didn't already feel that on a daily basis why not make it even worse? and with god's devine powers he did by giving me that tooting week!! patapos not only that diba down na ako sa talents ko sa pag drawing, this person na i really think is great sinabi sakin na kaya im not an artist is because magaling ako sa math...ouch masakit talaga yon...ano na mga talents ko??? honestly wala na tuloy akong maisip...seguro being pesamistic at my inability to spell correctly..kahit may spell check na. haha yun naman ang palpak..oo nga pala lets add pagiging sablay to my talents.
b. sa lahat ng matatalino at magagaling at out there naiingit ako sainyo...not your fault madali lang ako naiingit..kaya yan. at sa mga madaming friends na super close at yung mga nakaka "get along" with maraming tao...i don't wish you ill pero sorry kung naiingt ako pero i am kaya sorry if i look like a phsyco.

4. ayokong ikwento. basta i'm really sory at i wish i could take it back pero i can't at im really sorry. alam ko nakakahurt yung nasabi ko pero please sana hindi ka galit sakin...i really am sorry..pero i understand if you are mad...may reason naman at i deserve it kung di mo ako papansin kahit kelan pero please...sana lang well forgive me someday...kasi i really didn't mean it bigla ko lang nasabi...bobo lang talaga ako...sorry...i really really am...

5.- 7. hehehe

8. lahat ng kasama ko ay murderes (sory kung maling spelling) super natakot ako non (no ofense) pero lets face it ang close niyo guys at ako parang na extra lang sa group... wala ba kayo nahanap na iba o yung ibang members ng murderers may ibang group na o nasa ibang sec na? honeslty yun yung unang pumasok sa isip ko... i'm sorry kung ang ungreatful ako na pinasama niyo ako sa group niyo it's not the fact that your murderers, it's your friendship at closeness...doon ako natatakot. kasi baka ma op lang ako, at di maka relate...which i know magyayari na kasi ang tagal niyo ng friends at marami na kayong memories together. pero alam ko i sound really stupid ngayon..pero i just wanted to share kasi alam ko mababait kayo at i really love some of you guys (dont really know some eh pero i know na nice sila) pero kahit sabihin niyo hindi ito mang yayari one time or another trust me mangyayari yan, hindi dahil masama kayo pero the fact na ang close niyo nga at marami rin kayo experience with each other na i don't have gives me the lesser chance to relate to a story o experience na sasabihin niyo. (:P buti pala mahaba ako mag sulat seguro natamad na kayo at hindi niyo na to nabasa at tumigil na kayo sa unahan haha YAY!!!) sana di kayo magalit sakin, im so happy nga na naisip niyo ako itanong...ako ba last option niyo na, natanong niyo ba buong class? hehe sige wag niyo sagutin niyan baka ayoko pa yung sagot. basta happy ako kasi i like you guys..natatakot lang talaga ako...kahit ano segurong sabihin niyo never mawawala yon kaya no point narin ang pagsabi ko...hahaha ang pointelss ko parati :))

9. hahahahahahahahaha.....bahala na ito....kung ano nalang isipin niyo...hindi ko nalang ieexplain baka di niyo lang magets...

LAST WORDS NA!!!!!-thank GOD for the 4 day break kahit may mga home work masaya parin kasi makakahinga ako at maglaro ng games sa internet!!!! WEEEEEE...bumalik rin internet namin just in time sa break SALAMAT GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!...babaw ko rin :P