Friday, August 18, 2006
MCDO is EVIL

grabe ang gross nung mcdo sorry kung ang arte ko pero ang sama nila. ieenumirate ko yung mga ayaw ko sakanila masama sa animals!!!! binibigyang hormone things at suwage waste ba sa pagkain nila pag patay rin sa animals grabe ang brutal!!! gumamit ba ng fire torch!!! yung mga tao na workers dinuduraan ng spit..sa pagkain at inumin!! yung mga plantations nag sisira ng forests at sinisira yung homes na iba may mga bribing pa ng mga tao

im hoping talaga na hindi yon actually nagyayari...still praying... oonga pala ito yung evil na game

EVIL GAME

so yan yon evil siya and i just felt like saying hahaha babaw ko rin

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(Second really bad study and health habits...this for example...i actually shouldnt be doing this and i shouldnt be eating junkfood and drinking coke as if it was water... haha and if i was doing all the shoulds instead of the shoudnt id probably be healthy, have high grades and be sleeping at 10:00 pm...id also probobly not be me

Third did something stupid today...i mean i didn't know it was a secret... so i asked...and well...i was being stupid...you should have said it was a secret..im just dense about these things...sooo sorry..but you know a sick part of me just wants you to get mad...to hate me so much you wouldn't want to talk to me...why? i dont know..i guess coz i havent felt it yet..sometimes i think subconsiously i do stupid things in friendships just to test it or to make them angry...so i can experience anger of a friend..but then again im not sure :P i could just be socialy inept.

Fourth Boys...one of the God damned topics of an ordinary girl...right now i hate them...not specifically but in general...see ive become more possesive of "things" that aren't really mine and though i dont show it i get jelouse soo easily....and well boys are just another reason for these "things" to go away... you know it was coming...but you never really knew when...dont get me wrong...i love the fact that their growing and maturing and becoming more rounded "things" but still you cant help but miss the old times...when i dont know...things are just different and sometimes selfishly it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. also becuase boys are just plain anoying...for me... man no matter what age they mostly seem like ass holes...

Fifth im not sure about one of my friends...i heard what somepeople said about her...and i heard something else...which backs up their statements...but i wont make conclusions yet... ill ask her first...hay...i know its an old issue but still...hayyy i dont know if she actually did anything worng...so i wont jump to conclusions...but i dought i'll be sharing anything anytime soon to her...i dont know i could be stupid enough to run to open wounds...well we'll find out sometime in the future...

Sixth im sickly jelouse...well i used to be... but now im kind of getting over it... kind of... i just have to think 'it was never mine to begine with' i miss bofore...when i thought i had part of it...

Seventh (ill make this the last...its kinda really early and i dont think im thinking properly anymore...hehe my eyes hurt too coz of all the reading comics ive been doing :P i probably wont come to ym till around late in the afternoon...) see this is the most confusing of all for me..family...haha firstly and most importantly...i wont hid it...im kind of used to it anyway...my dad and mom have been in the hospital since fri... and my dads been feeling really bad for the past few months... it kind of frightens me... but what can you do? decembers comming up...you person if your reading this remember? if not i understand :) but if you do it comming closer...and i still dont know what to do... my sister *older* she might be coming back on the 23...and honestly im not sure how to feel... a part of me says you should be happy because shes your sister...but a bigger part of me says... well feels dread and anoyance that she has to come back... mean of me to say but the strongest memories i have of her are when shes being detatched... mean... hurtfull... unaproachable... i dont know...but i can actually count the two times she tried to be nice...wait the three times... but i dont know...
you know i really hate it when people say... or tell stories about things their dad do or mom or ate or little sister or brother or whatever... i always end up thinking... moms not there...dad too sick to even do that... siblings are still trying to figure out who they are and are still a bit detatched... you know sometimes i want to be able to say me and my family went out to blahblahblah and bought blahblah and ate at blahblah... i know we all have our own families and their problems but still...also not that im materialistic or anything but sometimes its nice if your parents buy you something... i hear my classmates say my mom just baught me this and blahblah... i only have 4 bras 5 decent panties 1 pair of sandals, rubbershoes, schoolshoes. two shorts...some shirts...prob 8-15 not sure about the shirts i dont really count....4-6 decent pants....3 of which were bought by my lola... and that is basicaly my wordrobe...excluding uniforms... then the books i own were mostly from christmas/birhtday money i had to beg for or my baon which i saved up...hayy i know this is being selfish but sometimes i just wonder what its like to have a normal family...get grounded and chorse and stuf like that...hayyy confusing my self pa...

Eight (sorry i sudenly wasnt so sleep anymore...ohhh the suns out na and its 5:56am hahaaha) i miss physical contact...and though that may sound green it true...haha wala lang i do miss it...i guess for the people who know me you'll understand....with my family and all....and other stuf that happened...hayy..anyway sige..)