Tuesday, July 25, 2006
ulan-ulan

....grabe second day na walang pasok... paano na yan? ang dami namin namimis na subjects...nako hahaha nag pakahirap pa akong gumawa ng English essay kahapon...nako hahaha seguro iniisp ng teachers namin na dapat nagaaral kami ngayon...hayy sila naman seguro wala rin ginagawa... pero alam niyo sa totoo lang miss ko na ang school...haha kahit wala akong gaanong friends doon gusto ko parin pumunta kasi may namimiss akong mga tao...hahaha grabe paano na yan yung PE namin wala pa kaming ginagawa tommorow na presentation?!?!! nako nakakaasar pa yung mga group mates namin na galing noon sa ibang section parang walang paki!!! nako natutulog lang sa floor sarap sipain. ang laki pa nung ulo nila nako patapos ang yabang nila!!! hayyy nako...pero honestly di ko naman sila ganyon kalilala so wala rin akong masasabi na masama sakanila hehe...

MY thoughts na to kaya boring hehehe kaya kung natatamad kayo wag niyo nalang basahin magagalit lang kayo saakin hehe

SCHOOL NOON AT NGAYON
.....alam niyo this year nung una naaasar ako dahil gusto ko katulad ng last year. noong nandoon pa sila kat-kat, danee at ged...nung panahong iyon masaya talaga ako... (hehe ang chessy ko :P) eh kasi naman kahit hindi ganyon ako ka close sa maraming tao masaya parin. parang isang bupng class talaga kami :) at nakaibigan ko si angel noon at sila rosalyn... dati rati kasi nung year one kahit magkaclass mate kami di naman kami nag uusap... pero nung year two doon nag simula...hahaha so kahit para sakanila baka di ako ganyon ka importante sakanila (in all honesty alam ko naman sa ranking ng friends, para sakanila, kung meron, mababaw lang pwesto ko doon, seguro 2nd o 3rd to the last) para sakin malaking bagay yon...hehe ang babaw ko no? ganyan talaga pag di ka sanay sa pagmamahal ng iba na hindi ka obligado mahalin. hahaha baka parang ang sama ko naman pero ganyan talaga...hehehe alam niyo, at not to be green, yun yung unang taon na talagang naka hold ako ng ibang tao...hehe ang sama naman pakinggan pero nung sinabi ko nung start ng year ayokong hinahawakan...honestly lier lang talaga ako...kaya nga ang saya ko nung hindi siniunood ni rosalyn ang sinabi ko :P ang weird ko no?
....pero for the sake of the class sisikapin ko na bigyan ng chance yung bagong class ko kasi madaya naman yon kung hindi ko binigay todo yung loyalti ko doon...hmmm...kahit di na babalik ang noon haha nagaasa parin ako na masaya year na ito ... alam mo mas nag uusap kami ni rosalyn ngayon kasi nakakaasar talaga groupmates namin minsan...hehehe si angela rin mas nakakausap ko hahaha tanong ng tanong tungkol sa assingments eh haha okay naman sakin na ganyon mabait naman siya. well as they say life goes on tuloy tuloy lang diba?

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Sunday, July 23, 2006
the beginning pf the end

I’ve decided to start this blog with 3 poems I’ve writen which I think makes no sense. Hahaha I’m not much of a writer just someone trying to live life and be happy. So in a short note I am a love sick person, someone who wants love but is to afraid of rejection. Hahaha isn’t everyone… but anyway no one should take me seriously… it’s kind of weird though…when people talk about all those others who are paranoid and make up stuf to make them feel good…I end up wondering if I’m like that…which most probably I am…but still I’d like to think a little bit of my life isn’t a lie…not something I made up…that some people really care…Hahaha I got off tracked so anyway getting on with the poems…

poem: 1

Waiting for the rain to pass
Seeing you smile through a glass
Broken by sadness, being ashamed
Of the feeling reflected in them

Wishing it was still that time
Hopeing to change my emotions
To forget all my wants and desires
All my toughts and cazy dilusions

Knowing the past was gone
As you closed your eyes and moved away
Wanting so much to say I love you
But knew you didn’t feel the same

So in this darkness I’ll close my eyes as well
atleast forgeting this stupidity
As my tears burn my heart slowly
Not letting it flow freely

It was ment for someone else
My box wraped in lace
The one with wooden shingles
The thing I hid away

You took, without a word
And opened it in secret
laughed at it’s content
when thought it was disfigure

but what you didn’t know was that
it was also ment for you
Before you you stabed me in the back
It was my heart that used to love you

poem:3

in the moment of you embrace
a feeling of love was all I could trace
and I believed you, I was a fool
to think that you could love me the way I did you

so why did you hold me so tight
when it ment nothing to you
and then you said we'd be together
but I guess all that wasn't true

but still thingking it was ment for me
still wishing it would last for eternity
but knowing in my heart it was a lie
slowly broke my soul and all I had left was your smile

so yan yung mga gawa ko sory nalang if i bothered you with my stupid stuff pero it was nice to write it here...hahaha hope it was not that bad though...but it probably was :P