Thursday, August 31, 2006
today and other todays
.....i've decided to share something dear to my heart (actually mamaya sa week end nalang masyadong mahaba na ito) but before that kwento muna about whats been happening lately. well nothing much really. been cramped up with alot of home work. it's all been okay actually...not considering all the bad stuf i've been feeling due to the stupid ideas i think up... well we talked about stuf in an orderly manner first with the missing daysmon: well today nothing just cramming and finnished amors book..it was soo beautiful iloved it alot. cried :'( . hehe softy kasi...madaling magasgas ang puso... anyway felt sleepy and did nothig...figured na out na umiingay na ako dahil sa mga taong katabi ko. :D thank god...wla lang haha masaya nga eh.. dati quiet lang ngayon sumasaya na :)) grabe nakakatawa sila matha at sarah at sibyl...at yung iba pa ;)) funny :D
tues: we had PE grabe i almost cried (wow babaw ko) kasi di man lang ako makashoot na isang beses buong row na namin kami nalang ni fran di pa naka shoot :'( grabe pero i stoped my self ang oa naman kung umiyak ako para doon. pero with somewhat of a miracle we both were able to make shots :)) grabe was sooo happy :D yes...patapos i lost my hanky ;)) secret ko nalang kung paano :D
wed: wala nama again. had african music sa music. had to strain ears to hear the guy but was worth it grabe rich ng culture nila. was supposed to go to this thing na yfc sa fri-sun but decided not to go kasi well partly dahil sabi ni angel pag siya hindi sya pupunta at because as much as i'd like to make fun memories ayokong hindi makapag rest...ilove my rest :D
thurs: (ito na today) grabe lets start with
........eng ->nag present group nila angel at okay naman pero hirap mag copy ng notes @_@ bilis mag salita eh pero was nice :D kasi informative at masaya yung games.
.......Geom ->quiz okay naman kasi naka 15 :P Chem ->mahirap yung quiz but i deserve a low grade kaya i dont mind it so much.
......The ->cooking thing excited na ako..gusto ko mag cook. pero may isang time yung nag sabi tungkol sa chicken baka daw kami papatay o_O oh my...hindi ko ata yung kaya... mag patay ay mean hello cockroach palang ayoko na yung squish na sound patapos yung ant ayokong inaapalan. cute panaman nung chickens... ~_~ grabe kaya hmmm sana yung fish nalang...sorry...pero kung walang gagawa sa group namin i think i can step up to the plate... pero i hope i dont have to.
......ap -> haha funny to...yung group namin di maka concentrate sa dapat gawin...tried to make them pero napasama narin ako hehe bad me
......cle -> talked about well the highlight of the thing was when sir asked "are all the 3rd years virgins?" wow ang daming nag sabing no...paano nila alam... hindi ako nagulat masyado kasi may nagsabi sakin nung wed na hindi daw lahat. pero still hindi ko maimagine kung bakit nila magagawa yon. hmmm... whatever may happen sana hindi ako maganyon kahit it sounds so oldfashioned im waiting till marriage ^_^ i want it to be special :D and right now im not ready for kids :) but i want :D labo...when i think i can take care of them properly...(though you can never be really prepared) anyway...yung last nakakatawa kasi sabi ni sir "goodbye sec 5" @_@ 5??? 4 kami ah...patapos sabi ni jas "good bye and thankyou sir andie" =)) pang patawa talaga :P
......pauwi -> visited one of the places i love soo much kasi so many memories... the ODI :)) grabe parang alam niya lahat ng naranas ko nung 1st at 2nd year. (kaya pinauna ko na sina missy at mary ann, just had to visit it again) malapit na ako napaiyak kasi hindi ko na napupuntahan kapag lunch. :'( my gosh... naglie down ako sa dating tinutulugan ko it felt so comforting...at peaceful...grabe hirap ng change... they say its inevitable pero nakakasakit minsan. grabe every lunch doon ako dati. naka tulog, rest, nakapagisip, pangarap, makapag aral ng mabuti, nabasa sa ulan, nakakilala ng manong, naasar sa grade seven at 6 nong time na yon at so many more... siya yung one of the reasons di ako nabaliw doon kahit ako lang nan doon parang that was enough... masaya...ito drawing ginawa ko view niya nung tumingin ako doon sa glass doors. noon pa to
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
nothing really
talking too much about my life kaya lets talk about some funny things i've found...somethig funny...hehe just to open your eyes
another thing i found looking around... okay siya...natawa ako ng konti at nalungkot sa pagiisip na naiisp nila gawin ito
this guy is kinda funny...try reading maybe you'd like maybe you won't try anyway...or dont its your choice
i actualy need to sleep now...actually study since we have two quizes tom...none of which im perpared for...anyway will write soon hopefully...but maybe not as well...it depends...i guess well, it always depends doesn't it? so that's it for now...hope everyone has a nice day :D
im not sure if im allowed to do this but i will coz i found it nice and enlighting somewhat :)) labo anyway ito na yon
decided not to put it all just the three words that got my attention "Empty. Void. Nullnity"
Sunday, August 27, 2006
panaginip uli...
......anyway grabe walang pang ng yari today...kakastart palang eh kaya post nalang again soon :D yan palang naman ng yari.. oonga pala may strange dream ako......hahaha angel nan doon ka at may iba-iba pa. ironicaly birthday ko patapos ang aming invited patapos nan doon yung ilan sa friends ko patapos pumunta kami ng EK patapos nung nasa car na na color dirty white... nakatulog ako patapos nung nagising na ako tapos na kayo mag laro... nagulat ako b-day ko patapos iniwan niyo ako :)) yun naman patapos habang nasa EK dahil iniwan niyo ako may isa sa mga sainyo na binilhan ako ng b-gift :P nasaya naman ako. labo. patapos yon nag overnight yung ilang at doon natapos yung dream...ang strange ang dami ko nang napanaginip na tao... weird... hahaha anyway yan ang nang yari... kaya hehe sige aalis na ako :)
oonga pala happy birthday angel wow ilang taon ka na? sana mabuti araw mo :D God bless :) haha seguro nga lang di mo to makikita hehe no point na rin ^_^...
kanser day
082606
….wow had a dream about muriel....strange...hahaha it was like she was telaported to my house and she was lost...i don't remember much but it was strange...
it happened after i got home from watching noli me tangere in the AFP theater (it was an okay play..read the book though. i've been told that it's very nice). i fell asleep after going on the internet and getting disconnected a short while after i got online. i was sleep and said i'll take a short nap which turned out to be not so short... fell asleep from 2-7, wow that was kinda long...
….today when i woke up the bed was strangely warm and cozy...gosh that felt sooo good felt like never getting up...then i realized we had to go to the afp theater to watch noli...oh well at least i got to see my classmates... and other batchmates... accidentaly left my glasses coz well im kinda forgetful...duh... anyway it was okay...
…..walked in the rain when i got home (before i tuned on the inernet) and bought food. i don't know why but i like walking (ironicaly im fat so..i shouldn't like moving around but it's strange i like walking) especially in the rain. it feels great and i really get to think while im doing it... realized some stuf... got confused by others and felt bad about some... and got counfused again... so their that was my day so far...right now... am completing a report i was supposed to finish kanina but like i said fell asleep wayyyy toooo looong...oh yeah my ap group at lab group is kinda discouraging their all soooo great and responsible...wow it's like wow how do i keep up...oh well i'll try my best....
"i did my best, but i guess my best wasn't good ebough..."
do you know the song? it's a nice song...listen to it sometime..
….oh yeah sibyl gave my this song... "gitara" it is soooo nice and nakakasomething... don't know how to discribe it... it was really sweet...i guess... now i know what i want for my birthday... hehe 1. adobe photoshop 2. a stuf toy (realy like stuf toys ;)) i have two a1. tatin (stufed dog) a2. angelus (stufed elephant) i like soft sufed toys..pero mostly i want na given by someone i like :) yan yung magiging special sakanya eh 3. SOMEONE TO PLAY ME THAT SONG (acustic guitar at live sa harap ko. kakanta pa ha =))...pero okay lang kahit di tumutingin sakin :D) =)) hahaha like anyone would, but still a girl can dream.. ganda kasi nung struming at nung song lyrics... grabe... hahaha gusto ko kilala ko ayoko na stranger gagawa... picky pero well wish sha eh. so yan… kung walang matutupad diyan i guess malulungkot ako... haha pag pera lang makukuha ko okay lang i guess... makakabili na ako ng books na gusto ko...pero still mas gusto ko yung #3 at #2 hehehe ang something...gusto ko nga mag party sa b day ko pero gusto ko maliit lang...haha sino kaya invite ko? joke :P di ko ngaa alam kung icecelebrate ko pa...parang ayoko nalang...hayyy depende nalang...
Friday, August 25, 2006
...082506
082506(napaisip ko rin...since kami halos last na pinauwi today ang tagal ko nag muni muni sa bus...at napansin ko minsan lang ako naging super close sa isang tao....sino naba...wala akong maisip... hahaha baka tinatago ko lang...labo...ano ba meaning ng super close??? di ko rin alam kaya this whole sentence makes no sence..ata)
pumunta kami sa lab at dumating si sir beni at super masaya ako makita sya. pero, wow, yung iba they really care about sir... naiingit ako ng konti... pero yon pag tiningnan niyo mga mata at muka nila super ang saya nila... and in honesty ang galing niyang teacher.mga firsts ko sakanya...
- naka 90 + sa isang ap test :P 94 pa. i was soo happy... studied my ass off pa. kaya ang satisfying.
- daming extra credit work...ang saya pa gawin yung extra credit. nakatulong talaga yon sa grades ko
- nakatulog ako for almost whole subjects. grabe patapos di pa ako bumaksak sa subject niya. pero saya din niya mag kwento sadly nasa likod ako parati kaya di ako nakarinig masyado
- nakaenjoy ng histoy...dahil not only did he teach but also that he shared a part of himself talaga
- naka perfect sa ap quiz...hehe(dahil sa open notes)..actually
- open notes sa quizes at open book at lps...
- natuto mag aral from the book.
ano pa ba ngang yari..well nag linggo ng wika today (hehe linggo patapos today hehe ;)) patapos masaya mag picture. bisit my multiply to see. cute super...hehehe pero...wala lang..
yesterday din may parade..na parang di parade masaya din non... i like being photographer.. :) ...pero minsan lonely pero hahaha still love it :D
nako daming group work...ayoko non...i mean.. masaya may group pero minsan mas madali na hindi nalang group at individual nalang..pero i hate reports more!!! their evil...very evil.... infact born evil...never was it good...hahaha :)) labo...pero -_- true hayyy....
hahaha napansin ko ... ako ng ... grabe yun na ata pang period ko... hehe oppss hmmm sige ill try not to use it so often.
090806 ---at first i decided not to post this...pero i ended up posting it becuase well...i guess after edditing it i thought it would be proper to put up something in honor of sir beni. i know i wasn't one of those who where really close to sir...but i can still care right? even if it's a different kind...wait ang labo non... not sure what i ment by that but thats just it... im not sure...but i took a chance... with what im not sure din.
visit wala lang actually dont...it's up to you click or don't click
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
B.B, chairs and people
today was very...strange to say the least...well lets start with the almost beginig...
1. well the sitting arangement changed...(haha never ko na naging seatmate si rosa haha) anyway, nasa harap na ank (first time EVER kasama na diyan nung grade school pa) patapos katabi ko si martha (right), Sarah SP. (left)...pero baka mag palit kami ni marth kasi ayaw niya sa pwesto niya... depende nalang sa mga officers... ayyy oonga pala si sibs sa likod ko hahaha... ang funny non..hehe :P secret ko nalang kung bakit MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! >:) ... labo
2. nakakaantok si... isang teacher malapit na ako matulog... maganda subject niya pero nakakaantok boses niya...sorry to say pero okay na ako nasaharap na naririnig ko na din unlike before
3. nag pe na bb...hahaha okay lang actually...hehe masaya nga ako na hindi ako leader hahaha buti nag maalis taya...ako ata nag sujest non...pero no difference hahaha masaya na ako na hindi ako leader... pero about the practice okay naman... malapit ko nga mauntog sa ulo si cheche (sorry) as in ang lapit sa muka niya buti na nga lang di siya gumalaw....hahaha kundi nauntog na siya... seguro i need to work out na... super out of shape... ayoko panaman magalit sakin group mates ko hahaha (...looks around *_*) grabe kung nadisapoint sila wow...ang dami rin nila...isang buong barkada galit sakin :)) nakakatakot...
4. grabe napansin ko lang parang ang bilis ng cle.... wala lang parang walang nangyayari... napanik lang ako isang beses kasi si sir..nakita niya kinausap ako ni sarah...hahaha buti nalang di sya nagalit.... oonga pala by the way kung sino makakita o kumuha by accident yung cle kit ko PLEASE!!!! ibalik mo na :( ayoko bumili ng bagong book at isulat ko uli FP ko!!! hirap no at ang mahal ng book no!! hayy anyway not blaming anyone kasi wala naman akong proof...hayyy
5. nag sing up for log...para sa prom...hayyy gusto ko panaman mag finance...pero isang slot nalang at wala akong kasama...sayang talaga... really like finance...(@_@ pera@_@) hindi na nga ako pumasa nung sa fair... pero ayoko naman na wala akong kasama doon....ayoko ring lonely....hahaha.... sayang....
6. wala becoming more tamad each day..hayyy naiingit ako sa iba...ang hard working nila... bad study habits talaga... hahaha
7. grabe sira fire fox kanina...biglang after awhile... umokay naman (kaya nakasulat ako dito) patapos nasira naman yung ym T_T bweset!!!! nakakaasar...kelan kaya maaayos yon :( sayang oh well baka sign...naaadict na ako eh... hahaha... oh well ganyan talaga ang buhay... when life gives you lemons make lemonade... what if wala akong lemons? :)) nako...
8. last na to... kumain ako ng dinner... dami @_@ dalawang plato (*malalaki plato namin) na puno ng pagkain na adobo :)) tumataba nga talaga ako :)) paano na kaya to? prom na soon :)) sory nalang baka mag pants ako doon :)) pwede ba??? hahaha sana :P anyway gusto ko na...ng ano? haha ewan...nag susulat lang ako para di gumawa ng homework...sige alis na ako gagawa pa ako ng hw...hayyy nakakatamad talaga... !_! <-- haha clown...:P para sakin mukang clown HAHAHA...
Sunday, August 20, 2006
lets go for a long blog record >:)
..... ito muna sasabihin ko kasi habang i was writing this naka play yung music ko (Creative medizasource) eh nakababa yung volume... :P so walang sence din. patapos umalis ako at nanood ng 1 3 hill patapos nung lumalakad ako papuntang kitchen [ag tingin ko sa screen OH MY GOSH!!! yung nag play sa screen OH MY GOSH!!! prono!!! shit nagulat ako click ng click di ko man lang masarado!!! nakakapanick!!! nakakaconfuse...di naman ako naglagay doon nakakaasar naman ang inocent ng mata ko (lier din ako..di naman ganyon ka innocent) ...patapos skinip ko na diba...eh yung next porno uli @_@ nagulat ako :(( ...hindi ko na tuloy mabukas yung music player...hayyy nakakatroma... not pure na tulyo isip ko...yuck...i know na what "it" looks like....(actually dati pa kasi sa Bio pero anyway ibang klaseng visual aid na yon)
so tuloy na tayo sa tinatype ko bago ng yari yon....
grabe soo much to talk about hahahaha yan naman ang daldal ko pala...so anyway lets get going...
una let's do today bago tom kahit kakastart pala i would like to say na masaya siya...kasi i had this really strange dream...hahahaha soooo confusing pa...buti nalang i remembered it pa eh minsan talaga nakakalimutan ko >:) hahaha so anyway ito na
......see nung una nasaclass room ako natin patapos lahat ng students nasa classroom patapos inaasign ng isang tao yung mga jobs na gagawin natin in the campus...hindi ko magets yung akin basta nasa grade 4 ata...patapos ang creepy nung atmosphere...yung mga tao ay parang yung mga muka nila ang droopy...at ang dilim...patapos ang dami nakakasufocate kaya pumunta ako sa labas patapos kasama ko si sibs at fran bigla ( :-' don't know why though nan doon lang sila) patapos may nakita kaming animals ang furry ;)) ang cute :P patapos lumalapit sakin. yung mga animals shaped like a horse small elephant patapos small geraph, at hippo at rihno at ibaibang shape pa...hahaha lumapit nga sila diba patapos hinawakan namin sila fran at sibs patapos ang soft nila at ang furry at colored white at chocolate brown yung fur nila patpaos iba-ibang types of coats ang meron sila hindi parepareho yung design. anyway. patapos lumapit yung giraph at elephat...HINDI PALA SMALL...ang lalaki patapos hinahabol kami patapos tumatakbo kami. at para hindi kami habulen nag jump kami over nung fence into a grassy field...hinabol pa kami so iilang beses namin ginawa yon...in and out nung field hayyyy!!!! nawal din sila after..nakakatakot kaya...kahit cute sila...(*nasa walk way namin nakita yung animals yung malapit sa kinder at highschool) patapos nasa malapit na kami ng clinic...ata basta looks like...dito naging wierd na ng todo...kung hindi pa weird nung una...super wierd na ngayon...kasi pagdating na doon wala na akong kasama..patapos ang daming tumatakbo patapos sinamahan ko patapos...may creepy na parang sadako of buzzy na girl na mahabang buhok patapos takbo pa... patapos.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA nakalimutan ko na .... :P sorry so much...hehehe ewan ko na ang ng yari...well naalala ko lang na at the end it turns out na parang may guy...(not sure kung ako yon) patapos yung girl mom niya o something patapos pinoprotect niya lang from something...hahaha kayapala sa lahat ng pinupunta ko nan doon siya...pero bakit pa ang creepy nung suot niya???? nakakatakot tuloy..patapos sinagot niya kasi daw para di mahalata na siya yon @_@ duh!!! may mga ibang costume naman diyan ah!!!!!!! hayy anyway sory di ko maalala yung lahat na ng yari sa dream.. :P ganyon talaga minsan
birthday nang lola ko nung 19th late na kami nakauwi kaya di na ako nakasulat...so honestly di ako nasayahan. hahaha yung lang talaga ginawa ko doon sa lola ko dahil ayoko ng croweds lumayo ako...eh may swinging chair thingys sila doon kaya nag swing ako (*love swings talaga) patapos nag isip ako at nagbasa ng book
1. naisip ko na namiss ko lang yung odi...hahaha yun naman pero totoo na miss ko yung odi...nalala ko yung masayang peaceful times na naspend with it kapag lunch at yung times nakatulog pa ako at yung manong hinahiyan ko at yung anak niya...nakapractice ako nung oe dati at nakarelax talaga sakin yon...nung sad ako doon ako pumunta...hayyy patapos nakapagisip talaga ako doon kahit minsan mainit o malamig o umuulan at nababasa ako o yung mga pesteng grade seven at grade 6 noon super na ingay hayyy masaya parin...miss ko na sooo much...(nung year 1 at 2 lang ako nakapunta ngayon i just cant seem to find time)
2. miss my friends...babaw ko pero yes...at gusto ko sabihin doon sa iilan na im soooo greatfull na naging friend ko siya si. pero nahihiya ako doon sa isa...sana di na ako umiyak non...naaasar ako sa sarili ko ang weak ko talaga...kaya jhayyy sorry kung burden... pero yan naisip ko nag magpapasalamat nalang ako pag reco sa letter :) shy talaga sorry wala kayong magagawa doon.
3. naisip ko din na i dont like my family status very much...alam ko dapat masaya ako na mabuti naman yung lifestyle ko. i mean i get to go to school at i get food at a shelter at other stuf din...na di naman necessary...pero what about the emotional times...yung mga times na malungkot ako... yung times na kailangan ko ng hug o ng cheer? ewan ba baka naging selfish lang ako ... kasi hindi masyadong physical ang family namin di rin through words pinapakita ... kaya sorry sa iba kung minsan di ko mabalik ang words na i love you at iba pa kasi di ako sanay...hindi ko nga alam kung mahal ko na yung isang tao o hindi... naguguluhan talaga ako... pero i know i care about people...kasi nasasaktan din ako kung may nasaktan ako... (nakakasakit din ako kahit ayoko minsan). o kung may nasaktan kahit hindi ko rin kasalanan...minsan. hindi ko rin nakikita love ng parents ko, yung klaseng mushy at close close (Pero may love parin no). patapos natatakot ako na baka maging ganoon din buhay ko... ayoko... kaya nga i treasure so much the friendship na meron ako ngayon super it's a new experience talaga para sakin... yung physical at verbal...(di man lang kami nag aact na we care about each other) at natatakot rin ako na never ako makakahanap ng love talaga...as in yung kasama ko FOREVER!!! patapos ayoko yung love na katulad sa parents ko na parang their together because of habbit... gusto ko ako parin pinaka important sakanya at akin siya... (syempre pag may kids na sila rin kasama sa circle of most important pero ayoko mawala yung love niya sakin) alam ko parang selfish yan... i know selfish siya pero gusto ko yan...sorry nalang. nakakatakot kasi isipin na alone ka forever at wala kang kasama sa mundong puno ng tao...
4. ang ganda ng nature. grabe nung nakita ko yung colors at yung serenity niya na relax talaga ako... nothing beats it's beautiy... baka equals pero wala pa sakin nakakabeat doon... haha kaya nasiyahan ako :P babaw pero at least happy for once.
5. that i think to much...madalas sinasabi sakin... masyado madami ako pinapagisipan. masama ba yon? hayyy im not sure talaga..pero minsan mali naman pinagaisipan ko... as in not the topics na dapat most important sa buhay ko ngayon. hayyy pero still i think about it kasi it's there, and i can think.. so why not? it's bad sometimes kasi i wish for the best patapos i know rin i cant reach it kaya malungkot ako madalas at i know most of the things i imagine never magyayari, eh wala naman ako magagawa kaya malulungkot ako...hayyy sana nga minsan, pinapag isipan ko, kung hindi ako ganito mag isip baka rin masmasaya ako.. pero then i wouldn't be me. seguro may ibang prblema naman ako non... yun naman... grabe mga qualities nga ng pagiging tao. pero im happy...kasi alam ko im not the only person who thinks like this. dati nga kala ko (which is just a while ago) na lahat nagiisip katulad ko... pero sabi sakin ata ng dad ko o ng isang kaibigan na hindi daw lahat ganito mag isip... so parang ako @_@ at this is another thing that makes me strange...weee like i needed more HAHAHAHA... T_T i don't. hehe...
......anyway masyado an ako nag daldal for now baka napagod na mga mata mo :P sorry. pero masaya mag daldal kasi kelan kelan ko lang to nagagawa. hahaha pang palabas ng steam... sana di rin kayo na bore hahaha (hahaha pinagisipan ko talaga spelling non. una boar patapos naging boare...hahaha di ako sure kaya pumili ka nalang :) so nextime grabe nag muni-muni talaga ako kahapon :D malapit nga ako umiyak eh.... hahaha for what reason? for all of the above and bellow... at dahil sa mga taong nag mamahal sakin...at para sa mga taong naghihirap na hindi ko namention...gusto kolang sabihin na for one moment lets pray for them... they need it and so do we. don't ever forget na minsan yng nag tutulong ay yung may kailangan rin... (kahit chessy sasabihin ko) guys let's help, forgive at take care of each other... kasi kung hindi tayo sino pa? lets help thoes who need it kahit di nila sinasabi... especialy thoes yung halatang halata na nag hihirap.... I am so sorry rin kung minsan hindi ako nakakapag tulong kasi...di ko alam minsan kung paano... baka masaktan lang kita... alam ko naman din na may mas qualified na tutulong sayo at mas maapretiate mo yung company nila.... gusto ko makatulong kaya (sorry clueless talaga) please sabihin niyo kung anong klaseng help gusto niyo...ill be open to do anything... basta walang nasasaktan na iba... gusto niyo ba may makafeel the same way your feeling... masakit diba yung feeling? so don't wish that on others. kaya yan
....sorry kung na offtrack talaga ako hehe ganyan lang minsan...mahaba din ako sumulat para di niyo maabot kahat.. haha yun naman strategies..hahaha baka sa dami kong sinasabi maubusan na ako ng ideas... haha oh well paulit ulit nalang :)) god bless sayo :D be HAPPY :D
p.s. magaling rin pala sister ko...naiisip niya emotions ng iba una nagalit ako sa pagsabi niya sakin ng opinion niya kasi parang ang sama ng tingin niya pero after a cool down i realized na kahit ang sama ng tingin niya tama rin sinabi niya...kaya hayy yan pinalit ko na i'll try to be like her naman...think of what others feel...kaya i'll make a fool of my self nalang here and try not to jeoperdize others emotions...
Friday, August 18, 2006
MCDO is EVIL
grabe ang gross nung mcdo sorry kung ang arte ko pero ang sama nila. ieenumirate ko yung mga ayaw ko sakanila masama sa animals!!!! binibigyang hormone things at suwage waste ba sa pagkain nila pag patay rin sa animals grabe ang brutal!!! gumamit ba ng fire torch!!! yung mga tao na workers dinuduraan ng spit..sa pagkain at inumin!! yung mga plantations nag sisira ng forests at sinisira yung homes na iba may mga bribing pa ng mga taoim hoping talaga na hindi yon actually nagyayari...still praying... oonga pala ito yung evil na game
EVIL GAME
so yan yon evil siya and i just felt like saying hahaha babaw ko rin
(Second really bad study and health habits...this for example...i actually shouldnt be doing this and i shouldnt be eating junkfood and drinking coke as if it was water... haha and if i was doing all the shoulds instead of the shoudnt id probably be healthy, have high grades and be sleeping at 10:00 pm...id also probobly not be me
Third did something stupid today...i mean i didn't know it was a secret... so i asked...and well...i was being stupid...you should have said it was a secret..im just dense about these things...sooo sorry..but you know a sick part of me just wants you to get mad...to hate me so much you wouldn't want to talk to me...why? i dont know..i guess coz i havent felt it yet..sometimes i think subconsiously i do stupid things in friendships just to test it or to make them angry...so i can experience anger of a friend..but then again im not sure :P i could just be socialy inept.
Fourth Boys...one of the God damned topics of an ordinary girl...right now i hate them...not specifically but in general...see ive become more possesive of "things" that aren't really mine and though i dont show it i get jelouse soo easily....and well boys are just another reason for these "things" to go away... you know it was coming...but you never really knew when...dont get me wrong...i love the fact that their growing and maturing and becoming more rounded "things" but still you cant help but miss the old times...when i dont know...things are just different and sometimes selfishly it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. also becuase boys are just plain anoying...for me... man no matter what age they mostly seem like ass holes...
Fifth im not sure about one of my friends...i heard what somepeople said about her...and i heard something else...which backs up their statements...but i wont make conclusions yet... ill ask her first...hay...i know its an old issue but still...hayyy i dont know if she actually did anything worng...so i wont jump to conclusions...but i dought i'll be sharing anything anytime soon to her...i dont know i could be stupid enough to run to open wounds...well we'll find out sometime in the future...
Sixth im sickly jelouse...well i used to be... but now im kind of getting over it... kind of... i just have to think 'it was never mine to begine with' i miss bofore...when i thought i had part of it...
Seventh (ill make this the last...its kinda really early and i dont think im thinking properly anymore...hehe my eyes hurt too coz of all the reading comics ive been doing :P i probably wont come to ym till around late in the afternoon...) see this is the most confusing of all for me..family...haha firstly and most importantly...i wont hid it...im kind of used to it anyway...my dad and mom have been in the hospital since fri... and my dads been feeling really bad for the past few months... it kind of frightens me... but what can you do? decembers comming up...you person if your reading this remember? if not i understand :) but if you do it comming closer...and i still dont know what to do... my sister *older* she might be coming back on the 23...and honestly im not sure how to feel... a part of me says you should be happy because shes your sister...but a bigger part of me says... well feels dread and anoyance that she has to come back... mean of me to say but the strongest memories i have of her are when shes being detatched... mean... hurtfull... unaproachable... i dont know...but i can actually count the two times she tried to be nice...wait the three times... but i dont know...
you know i really hate it when people say... or tell stories about things their dad do or mom or ate or little sister or brother or whatever... i always end up thinking... moms not there...dad too sick to even do that... siblings are still trying to figure out who they are and are still a bit detatched... you know sometimes i want to be able to say me and my family went out to blahblahblah and bought blahblah and ate at blahblah... i know we all have our own families and their problems but still...also not that im materialistic or anything but sometimes its nice if your parents buy you something... i hear my classmates say my mom just baught me this and blahblah... i only have 4 bras 5 decent panties 1 pair of sandals, rubbershoes, schoolshoes. two shorts...some shirts...prob 8-15 not sure about the shirts i dont really count....4-6 decent pants....3 of which were bought by my lola... and that is basicaly my wordrobe...excluding uniforms... then the books i own were mostly from christmas/birhtday money i had to beg for or my baon which i saved up...hayy i know this is being selfish but sometimes i just wonder what its like to have a normal family...get grounded and chorse and stuf like that...hayyy confusing my self pa...
Eight (sorry i sudenly wasnt so sleep anymore...ohhh the suns out na and its 5:56am hahaaha) i miss physical contact...and though that may sound green it true...haha wala lang i do miss it...i guess for the people who know me you'll understand....with my family and all....and other stuf that happened...hayy..anyway sige..)
Thursday, August 17, 2006
mahabang usapan..this is a warning
grabe its a strange these past few days...daming nang yari (yung iba ibang time pero with connection with the present kaya nilagay ko nalang)0. may nakilala akong tao...not sure kung dapat sabihin ko yung pangalan :-/ kaya hindi nalang :)) hehe naguguluhan ako...pero happy rin... haha labo
1. got all the grades na(...i dont think i deserved any of them but hell i got them anyway)
2. filipino monologo(...just froze while in front...am a big loser)
3. people today seemed to rub in my face just how much of a loser i am (really, i just may be paranoid)
4. did a stupid thing..as in really stupid (yesterday) and still feel really bad about it
5. internet connection died yesterday and was a bit pissed but that's the way God decided to spin my strings so, went with the flow..
6. had the cha-cha thing...im sorry i didn't listen much... was at the back..and got pissed at the first guy coz it was in taglish..and that (im sory to say because it was supposed to be serious bussiness) made me feel really anoyed. if you speak english go all the way with it and if tagalog go all the way to...this mostly applyes to super serious bussiness like the chacha fo the philippines.---kontradicting ang sinasabi ko dito pero note hindi serioso yung akin..well kindi off...haha kaya pwede taglish...
7. played hangman with amor the 2nd and 3rd speaker..(im so sorry...coz now that i think about it i should have listend..i must sound like a really bad person right now...)
8. nag groupings sa PE
9. felt bad for many reasons and felt glad for many as well...so parang nutral na malungkot...gets?
that is basicaly my life since i last wrote...hahaha hindi lahat pero basicaly nga. yung iba ieexpoundan ko (if that's even a word >:) kaya if natatamad na kayo okay lang sakin :D understandable kasi yung susunod na ay filled with my anoying comments :)) as if hindi pa puno na ito ng aking thoughts..haha stupid, blog nga diba? ano paba ito but thoughts ko? haha. Nabasa ko sa isang blog na nag susulat siya kasi isip niya magaling siya sa English (magaling nga pero iba ang point ko) kasi napaisip ako non...bakit pa ako nagsusulat? eh hindi naman ako magaling sa English? o sa pag sulat? hindi nga ako nagaling mag salita eh? why am i sharing my selfish thoughts? i still don't know why kaya i'll keep on writing kasi... well feel ko lang (ayy ang selfish) anyway ito na....dum dum dum duuummm
0. wow i learned na ang open ko sa ym..hmmm di ba dapat baligtad yon? haha well baligtad nga naman ako. alam mo ba (if your reading this) nagalit sakin kuya ko >:) hinahog ko daw ang comp (which is true non) pero na sisiyahan talaga ako kaya di ako nag ofline...hehehe >:) anyway hope i don't sound phsyco-is hehe ( i probably do) ...at wow dapat pala mag pasalamat ako kay angel...siya kasi (if i remember correctly, baka mali rin...kasi super forgetful ko talaga) yung nag pa online sakin regularly. dati kasi never ako mag online hahaha eh one thing led to another patapos nag online na ako halos araw araw...at dahil umalis na rin sister ke ay marami narin akong oras sa computer.
1 . i dont deserve my grades, kasi kahit for some na super talino ay there not that great isip ko their too good for me...hmmm... di ako gaano nag aral...kaya those na nag aral talaga ay mas deserving na makuha yon...kaya i feel guilty for getting them..hindi rin mataas but i thought i deserved lower for some. ito mga grades ko yung may T_T=don't deserve at ^_^ =happy
@_@ = nag cheat ba ako? at .... = i deserve it at :( = sad. okay ito na
......................................FIL = 88 @_@ ^_^x100
......................................AP = 79 .... :(
......................................ENG = 90 T_T ^_^
......................................CHEM = 94 T_T ^_^
......................................ENVI = 88 ^_^
......................................GEOM= 95 @_@ T_T :(
......................................ALG = 98 ^_^
......................................CLE = 82 ^_^ x100 T_T x100
note: para lang sa mga taong nag sasabi ng wheee kapag sinasabi ko na mababaako sa isang subject...WAG NGA KAYO GANYAN!!!(sorry i can take it naman pero if you can please wag lang over) masaki talaga!! tao rin ako nag kakamali (minsan bobng mali talaga..note#4...) at especially masakit yon kasi alam ko na doon lang ako nakaka line of nine patapos super takot ako maka line of 8 kasi parang sinasabi non na wala na talaga akong skills sa kahit ano...alam ko na na hindi talaga ako super sa isang bagay(di katulag ng iba) kaya ito lang pag-asa ko...(super, ako ang pinaka bobo sa family... kung hindi na yon preasure idagdag mo pa ang mga over achievers na classmates ko...ps it's not a bad thing amazed nga ako sainyo eh)
2. sorry steph di ko nagamit yung mga sinugets mo na panic ako sa harap..thank God walang nakinig sakin...nakakahiya talaga ako non...at steph galing mo :D grabe sooo at awe and wonder (tama ba yung pag gamit :)) hindi ko na tiningnan grade ko kasi I'm paying to God na sana mag karoon ng miracle at...well sana lang maawa sakin si miss lala (can't seem to remember her name hehe sorry)
3. a. si alysa ba pumunta sakin at nag usap tungkol sa cartooning and how it was so much fun!!! patapos she asked me talaga what was my club and why i didn't join cartooning...did she not hear me the 1st and 2nd time i ans those questions before? or is she just forgetful/ boutsful? yes di nga ako pumasa sa cartooning at that was a really bad week (pero thanks rosa :) for me kasi hindi ako pumasa sa finance at hindi rin nakuha yung rides at di rin ako pumasa ng cartooning...lahat ng tinry ko ay di ako pumasa...rejection na talaga yon...if i didn't already feel that on a daily basis why not make it even worse? and with god's devine powers he did by giving me that tooting week!! patapos not only that diba down na ako sa talents ko sa pag drawing, this person na i really think is great sinabi sakin na kaya im not an artist is because magaling ako sa math...ouch masakit talaga yon...ano na mga talents ko??? honestly wala na tuloy akong maisip...seguro being pesamistic at my inability to spell correctly..kahit may spell check na. haha yun naman ang palpak..oo nga pala lets add pagiging sablay to my talents.
b. sa lahat ng matatalino at magagaling at out there naiingit ako sainyo...not your fault madali lang ako naiingit..kaya yan. at sa mga madaming friends na super close at yung mga nakaka "get along" with maraming tao...i don't wish you ill pero sorry kung naiingt ako pero i am kaya sorry if i look like a phsyco.
4. ayokong ikwento. basta i'm really sory at i wish i could take it back pero i can't at im really sorry. alam ko nakakahurt yung nasabi ko pero please sana hindi ka galit sakin...i really am sorry..pero i understand if you are mad...may reason naman at i deserve it kung di mo ako papansin kahit kelan pero please...sana lang well forgive me someday...kasi i really didn't mean it bigla ko lang nasabi...bobo lang talaga ako...sorry...i really really am...
5.- 7. hehehe
8. lahat ng kasama ko ay murderes (sory kung maling spelling) super natakot ako non (no ofense) pero lets face it ang close niyo guys at ako parang na extra lang sa group... wala ba kayo nahanap na iba o yung ibang members ng murderers may ibang group na o nasa ibang sec na? honeslty yun yung unang pumasok sa isip ko... i'm sorry kung ang ungreatful ako na pinasama niyo ako sa group niyo it's not the fact that your murderers, it's your friendship at closeness...doon ako natatakot. kasi baka ma op lang ako, at di maka relate...which i know magyayari na kasi ang tagal niyo ng friends at marami na kayong memories together. pero alam ko i sound really stupid ngayon..pero i just wanted to share kasi alam ko mababait kayo at i really love some of you guys (dont really know some eh pero i know na nice sila) pero kahit sabihin niyo hindi ito mang yayari one time or another trust me mangyayari yan, hindi dahil masama kayo pero the fact na ang close niyo nga at marami rin kayo experience with each other na i don't have gives me the lesser chance to relate to a story o experience na sasabihin niyo. (:P buti pala mahaba ako mag sulat seguro natamad na kayo at hindi niyo na to nabasa at tumigil na kayo sa unahan haha YAY!!!) sana di kayo magalit sakin, im so happy nga na naisip niyo ako itanong...ako ba last option niyo na, natanong niyo ba buong class? hehe sige wag niyo sagutin niyan baka ayoko pa yung sagot. basta happy ako kasi i like you guys..natatakot lang talaga ako...kahit ano segurong sabihin niyo never mawawala yon kaya no point narin ang pagsabi ko...hahaha ang pointelss ko parati :))
9. hahahahahahahahaha.....bahala na ito....kung ano nalang isipin niyo...hindi ko nalang ieexplain baka di niyo lang magets...
LAST WORDS NA!!!!!-thank GOD for the 4 day break kahit may mga home work masaya parin kasi makakahinga ako at maglaro ng games sa internet!!!! WEEEEEE...bumalik rin internet namin just in time sa break SALAMAT GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!...babaw ko rin :P
Monday, August 14, 2006
si DAVE daw from uk
ang sasama nila....ayoko nang ganyon...creepy...actually okay lang sakin yung creepy till sinabi desperate ako at bitch...hayyy pikon ako forever pero for the heck of it ilalaga ko dito..note si amor, rosa, sarah, ishia toconversation...*note-kala ko talaga si ixa to
ixa! uy : hi
marie: hello
marie: im doing surgery
ixa! uy : how are you my dear?
ixa! uy: missed me?
marie: iilang oras lang
marie: YES!!!
marie: haha
marie: puntahan mo to cute
marie: http://hallpass.com/media/virtualkneesurgery.html
ixa! uy: what are you talking about?
ixa! uy: i cant understand your language
ixa! uy: its like gibberish to me
marie: ixa????
marie: ikaw ba yan???
ixa! uy: who's ixa??
marie: niloloko mo ba ako
marie: i feel so BAD!!!!
ixa! uy: what's "niloloko mo ba ako"??
marie: sino ko?
marie: *who are you?
ixa! uy: im dave from uk
marie: huh??
marie: why are you using ixa's ym??
ixa! uy: secret
marie: i don't know any daves'
ixa! uy: its my lillte dark secret
marie: okay
ixa! uy: want to know another secret?
marie: yes....
ixa! uy: i saw a picture of you
marie: from where?
ixa! uy: in this account
ixa! uy: i like your body
marie: you know i think your gay....you use pink and orange letters...and you said dear...how gayer could you get???
marie: thanks
marie: i think it's nice too (*note-obviously i was joking..kala ko kasi hacker na talaga to kaya okay mag joke)
ixa! uy: so what..
ixa! uy: women think men who use these colors are sexy
marie: that's what guy say when their in denial....
marie: welcome to denial stage
marie: gay person
ixa! uy: YOU LITTLE BITCH!
ixa! uy: I REALLY THINK YOU'RE HOT AND SEXY BUT YOU I GET IN REPLY IS A CRITICISM!
marie: "....BUT YOU I GET IN " maybe you should check your grammar
ixa! uy: it was a typographical error
marie: wow that was a big word
marie: good for you
ixa! uy: what
ixa! uy: is
ixa! uy: the
ixa! uy: biggest
ixa! uy: word
ixa! uy: you
ixa! uy: can
ixa! uy: spell
ixa! uy: ?
marie: paumanhin hindi po ako marunong mag inglesh...
marie: me no ispeeking your lungage
ixa! uy: ano gago kala mo di ako marunong magtagalog
marie: oo
ixa! uy: so are you like into anime or something?
ixa! uy: or is he you're crush?
ixa! uy: you're so desperate!
ixa! uy: si amor n ya
marie: ??????
marie: you know amor??
ixa! uy: ako yung kanina - rosa
marie: I HATE YOU SOOOOO MUCH
marie: >:P
marie: >:P
marie: >:P
ixa! uy: i thought you loved us?!?
ixa! uy: ikaw ah...PIKON!!!
ixa! uy: -AMOR
marie: never talking nto you EVER!!! again
marie: oo yes iiyak na ako
ixa! uy: TRY MO NGA..TINGNAN NGA NATIN...
ixa! uy: GUSTO KO MAY PICTURE AH...
ixa! uy: HABANG CRYING KA...
ixa! uy: -AMOR
ixa! uy: HINDI KAMI NILA SARAH AT IXA AT ROSA ANG NGSABI NYAN SI AMOR LANG ANG LALONG NANGAGANTYAW SAYO
marie: hate amor and rosa lang....nahurt talaga ako nung sinabi desperate...wala lang
ixa! uy: huy siamor lang yun!
ixa! uy: hindi ako mgsasabi ng ganun sayo..-rosalyn
ixa! uy: hindi ba totoo?!?
ixa! uy: joke lng...
marie: oo na desperate nga ako sorry nalang....ganyan talaga ako...
marie: mag susugery nalang muna ako
marie: di ako galit sayo rosa
marie: haha kala ko lang kasama ka doon sa una...
ixa! uy: yey
ixa! uy: oo ako ugn nagstart pero tandaan d kita tinawag na despera te
marie: hahaha salamat rosa...di ko nga maisip na masabi mo yon
marie: pero people change
marie: .....labo...
marie: sige good luck sa ip
(sabi ng sister ko ang bilis ko daw mag forgive...kasi daw pag siya galit pa daw seguro siya... hindi naman masama ginawa nila...masaya nga nung una... pero nung iniinsulot na ako...masakit ng konti...kasi kala ko talaga stranger lang patapos ginaganyan ako...anyway tooo serious ako at pikon kaya haha sorry talaga sainyo...di rin ako fun kausap :P)
sorry nalang kila rosa at sarah at amor at ishia kung na oa ako doon hehehe troma lang talaga ako sa mga ganyan... dahil dito....nang yari before....
....kasi dati may tumawag sa bahay namin creepy na guy patapos gustong kausapin ako... may problema daw... patpaos (infareness kilala niya boses ko alam kasi niya kung kelan ako patapos kung kelan hindi) sabi ko di ko siya kilala binaba ko yung phone
.....tumawag uli sabi ko sino gusto niyo kausapin...sabi niya ako...binaba ko yung phone uli
.....tumawag uli...(ilang bases din nang yari ang cycle na yan2-4) so moving on nalang
.....finally kinausap ko rin sabi ko...what's your problem...sabi niya...i just want to talk, are you in a dorm i heard other girls (mga sisters ko)...sabi ko no...nagusap ng konti, na freekout ako patapos nag bye ako
.....tumawag uli siya...(at something happened last last year pa to eh, kaya i forgot na) patapos nausap ata kami ng konti...pero nag bye narin ako kasi freeky talaga...
(ang stupid ko no? kinakausap ko parin kahit di ko kilala...eh kasi malay mo may kailangan talaga ang sama ko naman kung sasabihin ko...bug off!! diba?)
.....well nang yari rin na tumatawag parin siya kahit nag bye na ako iilang beses kaya tinangal ko yung plug thingy sa dulo... pag balik nung plug thingy tumawag parin @_@ creepy!!!
.....kaya yon kinausap ko uli...patapos nung super na creep out na talaga ako kaya tinangal ko yung plug thingy sa dulo uli at binalik ko nalang after a long time hayyyy
yan...nasabi ko....kaya napipikon ako sa pranks badddd memory talaga....hayyy
tapos na ang tests!!!
......YAY!!! tapos na yung test...pero mga monologo naman...hayyy walang katapusan ang pag torture samin :(( grabe...nakaka...something ang araw nito sakin. well lets start sa simula. ....... gumising ako at nakapunta ng school (DUH!!!). pagdating ko doon nakita ko sila M&M kaya nag aral kami ng filipino. yung prayer time na ang daldal ni mis Jose eh gusto na namin mag prayer para madaming time para mag aral. (sorry bad ako...dapat important yung prayer...oh well alam ko naman na evil ako >:) pero usap parin siya na usap nakaka...tawa (hehe honestly:) patapos nung fil test na feeling ko ang bagal ko mag sagot ng tanong ng test... mali mali pa seguro :( oh well wala na akong magagawa doon. *kawawa si rosalyn buong day cough siya ng cough...baka may sakit...ewan di ko rin natanong eh... anyway after ng test sa fil geom nag cramming sesion kami ni M&M patapos nag test na........NAKAKAASAR :'( ang dami ko nang mali. hindi na ako pwede maka 95 sa card. kasi i tried to calculate it na dapat maka 98 ako sa QT pero wala na hightest na makukuha ko ay 92....hayyy what can you do diba? tapos na :P well...may mga correction si sir sa test patapos alam niyo ba ang sabi niya??!?! sabi niya COMMON SENCE lang daw yung mga yon?!!!! what ever pag may mali yung test dapat sabihin sa lahat kasi malay ba namin pwede pala palitin yon kapag kala namin mali...especially sa part ng test na nagsasabi may mga mali talaga sa test na dapat ipalit!!!! nakakaasar sarap sipain sa no-o...!!!!!!!
...... anyway pag uwi ko habang nasa buss pa. may nakita akong pwete ng lalaki at lalaking umiihi sa tabi-tabi....grabe ang gross talaga ng mga lalaki....(nagdudura din sa kalsada...sorry kung parang ang arte ko pero ang gross talaga non!!!) umuwi akong may head ache...ewan ko kung bakit pero i'm glad hindi nang yari habang mga test...may-awa rin pala ang Diyos... :D
....... ang bobo ko talaga sa spelling hahaha walang mass kukumpara sakin :)) isipin niyo ba ispell ko yung video na vidio seryoso pa ako nung spinell ko yon :P hahaha sory nalang hindi talaga ako marunong :P. kaya yon...masaya rin araw ko kahit hirap rin....
......oo nga pala naka 89 lang ako sa geom ut2 ko....nasabi ko naba non?? sorry kung naulit ko...hayy tom gala ayoko...nakakatamad..inet pa...panget nung akin hehehe...basta...kung suot ko naman panget talaga kaya..hahaha gulo ko no? well ganyan talaga ako.
Friday, August 11, 2006
weird proctors sa tests
.....pag nang yayari to sainyo sabihin niyo naman oh..please...nakakaasar kasi ginawa sakin ni sir andie at sir ruel....
.....ang weird ng mga test para sakin, kasi naman yung mga proctors ang hilig tumingin sa paper ko...patapos parang binabasa nila(i feel so violated...oa :P)... patapos parang reaction pa nila sa mga sagot ko parang mali. nakakaasar kaya yon...nakakastress din.... sarap sapakin!!!! pero ofcorse pag gusto ko pumasa so kailangan mabait ako....(sigh)... mahirap din nung cle no erasures kasi nakita ko na may mali akong nabasa eh hindi ko na mapalit ans. Ko nakakaasa ang clumsy ko kasi…oo nga pala may nakakatawa kasi nung thurs ang daming nagtatanong kay sir andie tungkol sa UT2 results and I can proudly say na una akong nag tanong. kasi nung bumaba ako sa bus nakita ko si sir patapos tinanong ko hehe nagulat siya haha…sorry nalang sir…gusto ko lang naman malaman kung bagsak ba ako o hindi….hirap kasi nung test…
...... anyway i found out na halos gitna ako ng batch which i expected...hahaha bagsakan fil ko eh...hahahaha pero okay na yung 87.5 hahaha over 210 naman eh. Ka share ko daw si steph…nagulat nga ako kasi kala ko talaga mas matalino siya sakin…hehe matalino talaga siya eh
at again sasabihin ko...grabe hectic ng week patapos fil monologo pa sa wed....hindi ko ata kaya yon (sigh)....hay....daming pinapagawa….pero sana kahit ano basta hindi presentation…yun lang talaga ayaw ko… naisip ko bigla malapit nang tapos ang year…think about it ¼ na ng year ay wala na…patapos parang walang nang yari…(pero honestly I got to know some of my classmates better and that’s good naman)…I miss nung 2nd year…dahil sa classmates ko at dahil parang walang ginagawa non…naalala ko pa nung nagagawa ko yung HW in 1 hour patapos manunuod lang at mag gagawa ako ng other stuf…hayyy…sayang di na pwede ganyon…have to live in the present na :) sige kailangan ko na mag aral ng ap….pang palabas lang to ng stress hayyy hehehehe sige aral na talaga (as if, sana lang)
Thursday, August 10, 2006
left
.....have you ever wondered how amazing people got that way? where they born with the gift? or did they learn it form some amazing teatcher? dont look at me, i wouldn't know. but i've been looking around and there seems to be more of them each day. why are they multiplying? (i bet their doing this so that people who aren't so smart feel even dumer...hehe joke :P)......where ever i look there seems to be someone who's amazing in music, in art, in academics, in sports or who's a deep thinker or just simply all of the above. it sometimes is nice to know that these great people will one day help better the world but then (because i am so selfish) i wounder what can i contribute...when everything i can give someone else could give it ten times better? haha i know now i could be the person who'll be there when the great one does something else..haha yes that will be me...the lacky. haha talking too much about that topic...:P sorry
today was okay...to some degree. we had our tests on cle and health...i'll be safe to say i won't get any line of nine's on thoes test. :) next is chem and english. weee life is good. yes it is. and did you know i beat rosalyn in arm wresling...wala lang mababaw ako kasi i've been wanting to arm thingy since second year (yung naman ang obsessed) and amazingly i beat her pero the strangest part was that di ako masaya afterwards...kasi i dont really like winning. i'd rather see someone i like win then see my self beat them but their sad naman...i really don't like winning because then i know someone lost and i wouldn't mind loosing if only to know na masaya yung nakaplay ko :P hehe labo ko rin...
here is a list of stange lefties...and by the way im a lefty and proud...sabi raw nila magagaling daw at matatalino ang left handers and alot of people i know who are left are great...but....what happened to me? there must have been a glitch in Gods computer....nako virus na pala ako :D.
nagulat lang ako ang funny nung mga tao sa list...(wikipedia kaya not sure kung facts nga)
- Osama Bin Laden
- Jack the Ripper
- Adolf Hitler
- Julius Caesar
- Ramses II
- Leonardo da Vinci
- Lewis Carroll
- James A. Garfield (don't know who he is but may garfield eh haha cute)
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
happy sa chem
...hahaha ang bobo ko talaga naalala niyo ba nung nag stress ako at yung chem nag puno sakin at umiyak ako? well nakuha na namin grades namin sa ut2 chem test...hehehe grabe honestly kala ko babagsak talaga ako :P hindi pala...haha...grabe nakakasaya yon after nung stressful na test ng geom. alam niyo ba hindi ko natapos yung test...hayyy bumobobo nga ako... ahhhh nga pala grade ko ay.... 94 weeeeeee saya ko :D hehe but ayoko makita geom at algeb natatakot ako.......nako may quiz uli sa fil at wala pa akong pinapagaralan...ang stupid ko talaga, pero hindi lang sa grades. hay we all have our moments naman :P oh well i'd better get back to studing oo nga pala if you have the time visit my site sa multiply and check out my drawings sa paint so proud of them :P
....hahahaah just remembered naka 10 ako sa music exam weeeee masaya ako kasi kahit nagkamali ako di rin niya nakita hehe. bad me. pero still nag practice ako...well kailangan kasi di rin ako magaling. ayyy alam niyo ba na dapat - 2 lang ako pero dahil hindi ko alam kung anong la, ti ,do, mi chuva naka minus 12 ako hayyy mga di ko talaga kaya :P. pero still okay na ako sa 58 :P basta pumasa...kahit nakaperfect si rosalyn...>:( hehe joke lang. kawawa nga si mary ann eh mag tetest uli siya tom...hmmmm good luck sakanya >:D<>
maganda raw
.....grabe alam niyo ba ang babaw ko. kasi today nung nagpapanic na yung class about nung algeb test (hehehe evil ako kasi di ako nag panic...okay lang sakin yung test eh) de katabi ko sila ixa at rosalyn at cheche eh...sabi ni rosa na sabi ng sister niya aaasar daw siya sakin kasi daw maganda ako pero nakayuko daw parati ulo ko... eh grabe ang babaw ko pala kasi nasiyahan ako na sinabi maganda ako...(wow ang shallow ko... :( ayoko panaman non) eh kasi sa family walang ganyanan na hindi parang nag jojokejoke...(grabe ganda ng home environment ko) pero yon...nasiyahan ako :P kasi madalas alam ko naman na hindi ako ganyon ka ganda... pero it's nice to know rin minsan na maganda ko...at kasi para sakin ang ganda ng ate ni rosalyn kaya parang that coment ment something...labo ko :D.......god ang daming gagawin patapos nag blog pa ako. hehe. dapat nag aaral na ako ng geom...hehehe tamad lang kasi me :P english namin din tom patapos di kami handa as in SUPER!!! hindi. pero that's fine with me natatamad na ako eh...(actually hindi fine sakin pero ano magagawa ko ako rin yung problema i cant really also blame them completly).
......hayyy sige i'll study na :P (as if) kaya bye muna...hehehe nakatulog ako nung chem at english subjects namin walang tulog ako kahapon eh :P hahaha really bad me >:)
Saturday, August 05, 2006
confesion and hugs
......grabe saya mag confesion...pero nakakaasar haba na nga sulat ko patapos biglang nawala lahat :( nakakaasar... pero alam niyo... nakakapaginhawa... masaya talaga yung feeling pag sinrioso mo talaga :P masay rin nung after confesion sa library... kasi nung nasa internet place kami doon sa window may DAGA!!!!! hahahaha nakakatawa kasi pababa pa siya lumakad patapos later pataas naman siya lumakad sa window hahaha ang astig din niya :P awwww.... patapos nakuha ko yung gown ko o kung tawagin gala. hehe grabe di ko mataas arms ko..hmmm anyway wala na akong paki yun nalang gagamitin ko... nakauwi na akong 6:00 sa bahay nakakaasar talaga.... ang late... bagal ng mga bus mates ko.... :( .....naalala ko bigla yung game sa classroom namin...hinahawakan yung but at bob nung tao...grabe nakakaviolate rin. grabe masaya ako na atleast iisang beses lang hinawakan but at bob ko...(andrea, rosalyn...kayo ha!!...kayo din martha at lyra, ang weird niyo!!) kawawa sila sabu, alys at steph...navavaiolate talaga sila...si alys nga di na makatayo (awww) pero wow grabe dami ng confidence ng mga humahawak....never ko yon magagawa...
...actually wala na akong masabi kaya mag share nalang ako about my self kasi ang self-centered ko rin :P sorry ganyon lang talaga ako :D at yung susunod hindi yan poem namukang poem lang sa pag enter-enter ko after every sentence HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
who doesn't like hugs?
their full of love and understanding
they let you feel that there's someone there to lean on
and like your not alone
that people are not too disgusted to touch you
and that they needed someone to hug too
but hugs are bad too
they make you think people care
when inside they really dont
they make you think they'll be there
when in truth tomorrow they wont (...sometimes)
personaly i never usually get huged
not from my mother or my father
nor my siblings as well
but lately ive been getting more
but for some it would still be less
but for me it's just right
becuase the less i recieve it
the more it seems special when i do
that's why i love hugs so much
especialy form you
[mga nagtuto sakin okay ang humawak sa iba(dati kasi ayoko yung makahawak sa iba parang weird nung feeing kahit kamay lang) salamat talaga...ang touchy niyo eh...hahaha...angel & rosalyn...hahaha rosalyn salamat sa paghindi pagkinig sakin nung dati sinabi ko ayokong mahawakan hehehe ang strange nga eh pag ikaw di ko feel namomolest ako hahahaha at ikaw rin angel :)...pero minsan parin nafefeel ko na kapag may humawak sakin namomolest ako hahaha ang weird ko no?...pero ganyan talaga eh sa bahay namin hindi touchy feely... tinuro nga ako ng tatay ko na kapag iiyak lalabas muna patapos balik nalang kapag okay na...haha grabe nasabi ko na yata yon hehehe :P]
Thursday, August 03, 2006
sins
grabe ang saya rin ng today...grabe...una eco test patapos chem test patapos fil report at nung ap wala kaming handa na kahit ano...hehe... pero sa totoo lang okay naman kasi i expected it to be so much worse. alam niyo ba na nagdasal ako kay God at nagkatutuo hindi masyadong palpak araw ko :P. masaya grabe. si god talaga naaamaze ako kasi soo much na natulong niya sakin...
masaya ako nung fil dahil tapos na ako... nung report ko nga nakakatawa kasi mali-mali pag pronounce ko ng words hehe at least alam ko may nakikinig kasi tumatawa rin sila :D nakakatawa naman talaga eh... :) mali rin natuturuan ko na manila paper at haha basta ang clumsy ko din pagdating sa tagalog eh... :P pero actually kala ko nung una papalpak talaga ako pero hindi naman :) haha mabuti na yon :)
galing rin ng timing ng mundo no? kasi may about God ulit akong sasabihin kasi. nung cle pinag usapan yung confesion... grabe...
Pride
Envy
Glutony
Sloth
Lust
Avarice
Wrath
hindi rin naman ata ako nag lulust sa isang tao... i hope... at i dont long for money at have a hard time parting with it... at i'm not mad at anyone... hmmm mahirap rin pala.
ap quiz tom nakooo di ko yon kaya im so confused at geom naaasar nalang ako bweset hirap!!
saan second year muna uli ang saya kasi at ang dami rin nangyari... sorry kahit sinabi nila sa classE III-4 na tayo...i still miss it...sorry nalang talaga...
itong pic na ito natatawa ako kasi lately si angela humihingi ng tulong sakin sa hw okay lang sakin pero seguro titigil rin siya dahil mali-mali rin ans. ko hehehe sorry angela hahanap ka pa ng bagong tatanungan kasi nagtatanong narin ako :P so ito yung isang time na naiwan niya yung book sa geom at pinasulat sakin sa paint yung question hahaha nakakatawa lang kasi the next day di rin pinacheck ni sir andie.
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hahaha pero angela find someone better in geom kasi di ko rin na mememorize :P sorry
nastress lang
080206 <-- away kasi bumukas nung blog spot >:( pinaghirapan ko pa itype sa word di rin pala mabukas yung blog bweset anyway bumukas today kaya dalawa ang mapopost ko hehehehe
Grabe sooo stressed out!!! Dami pinapagawa!!! Hehe cant take it…brain overload @_@
Masaya pe namin today kahit medeocer gawa namin masaya groupmates ko kasama…sila amor, rosalyn, sibyl, che-che, janine at kahit kayo na walang kibo sa pagplano ng steps dayan at dorothy masaya kayo nung presentation…at least di kayo ganyon nag angal.
Grabe ang palpak ko this past two weeks…grabe may mass mabobobo pa sakin?? Wala na ata J all I can say is salamat sainyo (kilala niyo kung sino kayo) for today… nakatulong kahit konti… parang nakita ko talaga rin na may mga kaibigan ako susuporta sakin. Malaking bagay yon para sakin kasi eh…mag kaibigan nga tayo diba? Ewan basta kahit kung para sainyo ako hindi kayo kaibigan ko J dati pa… salamat talaga
ITO AY PAGDRADRAMA LAMANG AT MAHABA ITO KAYA KUNG WALA KAYONG ORAS WAG NIYONG BASAHIN DAHIL MAAANTOK LANG KAYO
Wow today napuno ako. Grabe di ko na kinayaipigil…Grabe, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kung hindi ko classmates ang mga classmates ko today J I love them sooo much grabe ang comforting… hahaha kaya salamat rosalyn, kahit di mo to mababasa, kasi nakita mo na di ako masaya (sinikap ko nga wag ipakita buong week…pero napuno lang talaga ako.). ang sama ng past 2 weeks talaga eh. Patapos nung times today na nakasama ko si rosalyn nakalimutan ko ang problema ko. Haha masaya yung pe kahit ang dami kong maling ginawa :P sorry kung parang ang babaw ko alam ko naman nahihirapan ang lahat pero kasi hindi lang talaga ako malakas. Maiyakin ako at duwag kaya ang mga nakakaya niyong ibalance ang buhay niyo ako walang wala na…di kasi ako kasing organized sainyo…hehe :P procrastinator hehe…alam mo ba rosa, nung tinanong mo kung bakit hindi ko masabi ang lahat ng problema ko kasi ewan ba di lang ako makaisip non… kasi masaya lang ako non kasi parang nafeel ko na hindi ko kailangan itago ang pagkahina ko kasi pagwala ka non seguro umiyak nalang ako pag gabi na… haha salamat din kay amor dahil sa funny *nakakaasar na comment. At kay richel dahil mabuting kaibigan siya…at di ako galit sayo richel J at kay mary ann na nag read through ng buod nung fil ko at salamat rin kay cheche sa pag tawa nung uwian. Oo nga pala yung point nito kasi ilalagay ko kung bakit ako umiyak…kasi para rin to sakin para ma sort through ko yung thoughts ko at maayos sana.
-->dahil sa chem di talaga ako nakakasunod doon sa idintefication at deffinitons
-->dahil nung class (chem) ang daming nag sasabi na ang daming nilang stupid na mali at sayang daw dapat naka 20 or something napaisip ako na wow atleast kayo stupid na mali ako mali lang talaga. Hindi ko alam yung ans at alam ko nung test mali na ako. Pero yung masakit doon iilang beses nila sinabi (more than 10 times) at dumiin lang sa kalooban ko na ang bobo ko talaga (ang sakit non) at kahit anong pag check ng paper ko hindi tataas score ko. (I deserve it naman kasi di ko talaga alam yung sagot)
-->dahil sa ap di ko talaga alam ang pinapag aralan. as in wala akong alam kasi yung stuf pag binabasa ko di ko talaga mamemoize.
-->dahil sa Fil!! Na nahihirapan talaga ako dahil ang gagaling nilang magreport silang lahat at natatakot akong magdisapoint sila. Kasi alam ko naman na walang kwenta at kulang ang aking irereport
-->dahil ang mga projects walang ginagawa mga groups ko parang walang team work/ effort sanay sila na isa lang gagawa nung work o on the spot lang. Its not their folt it’s the whole group. Hindi kami nag memeet at all at parang di ko kaya na ganyon…natatakot ako para sa ap project namin…:( :(
-->dahil sa sitting arangement wala rin ako makausap (ang ironic rin kasi di rin ako talkative) pero parang kapag nasa row at naguuasp ang row group si tooot nakatalikod sakin. Hindi ba parang proper etiquet na yung mga dulo lang sa row ang tatalikod at ang mga nasagitna tumutingin both sides like this / 0 0 \ para maka group lahat pero samin / / 0 \ hello how can I contribute kung nakatalikod ka sakin?!?!!
-->geom kasi nahihirapan talaga ako grabe I hate PROVING!!! Tama nga sila nung sinabi nila last year na mahirap yon. Hindi ko mamemorize yung Punyetang Postulates. Takteng.theorems at Lintek na Lines at angles
-->algeb dahil nahihirapan ako sa decimals at fractions at minsan hindi ko masagot yung question patapos parang ineexpect nung iba na alam ko nakakastess yon kasi alam ko hindi ko kaya isagot lahat.
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-->dahil natatakot ako na madidisapoint sakin ang mga mayisip sakin na matalino dahil hindi ako matalino…average lang…di ko nga masabi ang gusto ko kasi di ako ganyon ka magaling sa words. Yung masakit kasi yung parang alam mo di ka matalino patapos sinasabi na matalino ka parang nafefeel ko na nag sisinungaling ako. I hate lying panaman. At either super madidisapoint ko sila o they don’t really care at they are just using me as a comparison to things they think they lack which resolts to them trying to find it in others neglecting to see the other aspects of the person which are as or even more unsatisfactory than their bad traits.
-->dahil I guess (though I don’t want to admit it) na naaasar ako sa family ko. Kasi parang walang support na binibigay nila… alam mo ba rosalyn na tinuro sakin na kung tatampo lang ako o iiyak umalis muna ako at iayos ang thoughts ko… haha ako nalang seguro ang mag huhug sa sarili ko. Grabe maiyakin panaman ako. Sa mom ko rin honestly parang dalawa tatay ko. Kasi dad ko na nasa bahay parang tatay parin at walang gaanong affection joke joke lang at “discusions” kaya sorry kung minsan ang arte o ang sound it know it all ako kasi nasanay ako sa dad ko na magsalita ng ganyon. . mom ko naman yung parang dad na nag wowork at nag paparty at naghahang out with her friends at nagpapauwi ng pera at natutulog lang sa bahay patapos gigising at aalis. Satutuo lang mas gusto ko ganyo na ang aking mom kasi hindi na ako sanay sakanya. Parang di ko feel na family mom ko siya parang masasabi ko lang na ang SUPER respectable na person siya. Pero di ko ata kaya na sabihin na minamahal ko siya… sorry I cant lie wala akong nararamdaman na mom at daughter connection…yes ang dami kong utang sakanya…but that’s it utang lang mga yon at parang di niya binibigay dahil gusto niya kundi dahil iniisip niya na iyon ang gagawin ng isang ina at hindi niya idinadama sa kanyang puso. Parang ang sama ko pero ito may fact akong sasabihin sa lahat ng hugs o I love you’s mas marami akong nakukuhang ganyan sa class kaysa sa bahay…(tatay ko lang ang hinuhug ko) at yung masakit kapag sinasabi ko I love you sinasabi niya no you don’t parang ouch ang sakit non… bakit kapag kaibigan sinabihan ko I love you binabalik nila na walang lokohan pero pag pamilya di naniniwala… masakit rin…
hahaha yan ang dami ko tuloy nasabi usualy kaya ko ikeep yan inside na shock lang ako today….kaya rosalyn, I owe you soo much hindi lang para today kung di para sa sobrang marami pa… yng pinaka naalala ko yung (execpt for today) dahil hindi ka nakinig sakin nung 2nd year na ayoko na hinahawakan kasi minsan feeling ko minomolest ako ganyon ka gross ang feeling (sory paanoid lang talaga ako) pero nung ikaw okay lang haha napapasaya nga ako kung hinahug mo ako hehehe :P pero alam niyo na ang pinaka gusto ko yung seriosong I love you (hindi I lubs you o I heart you o yung I luv u yung deretsyo talaga) kasi parang dahil minsan minsan lang nagyayari parang tutuo talaga at para sakin yun talaga yung nakakataba ng puso dahil parang you really mean something to that person at natulungan mo siya in some way…sana someday may maapekto akong tao na ganyan…. SORRY din para sa mga nagtitiis sakin kapag nagsasalita ako sorry talaga at kapag walang kibo naman at kapag mali ang nasasabi ko na sagot kapag nagtatanong kayo…nagkakamali rin naman ako eh kaya im soooo sorry naguigilty talaga ako kapag nalaman ko na mali yung sinabi ko na sagot…at sorry din kay albertine at cynthia dahil naaasar ako sainyo kasi nakakaasa lang attitude niyo Im so sorry ayokong maasar pero nakakapikon kayo…sana malipat na akong upuan…pero gusto ko parin sa window…para makapag calm down ako pag mahirap na. Pero magaling kayo ha ung dalawang sinabi ko kanina matalino at luve niyo friends niyo…ako yung may kasalanan dahil hindi ko maaksept ang attitude niyo I soooo sorry for that I really am… I feel so mean and bad tuloy… I feel bad din when I talk bad about someone to other people (since yung CE at sa sinabi ni sabu) at dati pa ako natatakot na ginaganyan din ako ng iba… na nakakaasar rin pala ako ng ibang tao… alam ko naman na hindi ako yung tipong tao na naget along with everyone…hehehe panget kasi nung attitude ko :P heheh sorry din sa iba kasi nakailangan niyo pa ako makasama na ayaw niyo naman
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