Monday, October 09, 2006
something along the lines

i dont actually know what to write... a bit has happened already. well nag fellowship. nag bigay ng grades. tumaba ako. wore a really anoying piece of clothing (which i hope will never happen again). got a wound becuase of a friends story about a certain cockroach that flys in their house which made me trip at the site of a certain frog/jumpping cockroach in my house (twice!!) then well what else... well i got high in my math and reading made me feel like someone who couldnt read and chem made me feel foolish.... yeah...now we can talk about my stupidity...

my stupidity...
just recently someone told me something that ment alot to me and i really thought we were getting to be better friends. but then becuase of my incapacity to be a good and trusting friend the two days exactly after that happened i screwed up... yeah stupid me. first i wasn't able to bring that thing i said i'd bring then next i forgot that i could great her through the telephone...(i only thought of the cellphone and since i didn't have her number i couldn't do it...i forgot i had a telephone and her telephone number -__- ) stupid me... and even if she said she didn't mind... i bet she did... during my birthday she was really there and said happybirthday several times...infact she was the first (through text at 12:00) though my cell was of and i didn't recieve the message i still count it. :'( God im not a good friend. this be should a lesson to all of you. never ask me to be your friend never trust me, never think that im a good person. i feel so guilty. :'( it hurts to be stupid. it sometimes really does, doesn't it? i know i shouldn't have friends i kind of don't deserve them and thei'd be better of with out me. hayyy... yes thats it... leave me alone... i'll only dissapoint you if you give me the chance. so in advance im warning you...don't. hahaha... screawed up another friendship...weee and i was really starting to like this one...

and what would probebly hurt more is that if that person really didn't care coz then that means well i guess it means they never really cared about you...in my opinion... i could be wrong...completely wrong. yeah that's all i can write today... yeah

im getting that feeling i get when i cant write its like my heart hurts for no apparent reason and it just prevents me from writting...so thats all i can say for now... God so many people seemed menteled blocked... -__-

Labels: sad, stupidity