Wednesday, November 29, 2006
confused...

... growing up i was thought to try to make every thing as fair as possible...that since the world, as most people percieve it, is unfair, we should try our best to make it so that it is fair and not follow what is percieved by most...but apperently i was a stupid idiot for thinking so...i used to think that atleast everyone tried to be fair but apparently no...some believe that everyone is out to get a part of their share so they act in the same greediness that they think others are acting out...not everyone is like that im sure...but still when you try to be fair and you keep on getting trampeled on it gets hard sometimes... haha but i am not a saint for sure ive done my share of selfish and unfairish ways...haha im just being dramatic im sure...

anyway on with the day ^_^

today we had pe (yay) at thanks to the amazing people who made the dance (coughangela) (coughangel) dancing infront of a crowd wasnt so bad...the dance was really good (well in my opinion then again i could be bias..not sure sa spelling...) hahahaha we had to dance infront of lots of people becuase we were down at the caf...not that fun...but i guess when your classes lowest grade was 95 how could you complain? hayyy...haha nothing is happening...just alot of tests comming up and alot of other things...tom no classes...im sad for section 5....na cancel kasi reco nila...again...

oh yeah yesterday i went to guidance to have career talk...yeah that helped... -_- all i found out is that ms..uhhh...virgie.. i think thats her name...doesn't believe that women should be housewives...and just that...shes the type of person who thinks everyone/woman should have a career to be happy. hay.... honestly it was kind of anoying to have to stare at her face for almost 1 hour... she said something that kind of pissed me off "kung magiging nun ka sayang naman yan superior iq mo"(yes im considering becoming one im more into the helping out the poor and homeless kind of thing not the praying my ass off...but i could do that if needed...maybe :)) ...pero di muka no?) so ano yon?? just because you have the potential to be smart and you do something that doesnt necesecarily requier you to be a genious (who cant spell) doesnt mean im throwing my life away...and when i mentiond just being a home mom she started blabing about being bored at home with nothing to do since i am educated and that i could find a job/ "career" that would let me work at home... /:) halatang she doesnt really like the whole mom idea and being a house wife...i like, so screw you...haha just kidding we all have the rights to our own opinions... what else happened when we talked :-? well im deciding between graphic design, psycology or a teaching degree then i might be a nun or a house wife (which sadly requiers a husband) or i might brave the industries... haha im still not sure..see the problem is i dont know what i like or wether ive got what it takes to take up psyc...or be a teacher or a missionary or a mom...or if i have the creativityness needed to be a graphic designer...i actually want to write but i know i dont have what it takes for that... anyway...oh yeah i remembered something also...when i mentioned marying some guy so i wouldnt have to work she gave that dissaproving glace then i said ofcorse there has to be love first but she still gave that annoying look... man :| you just know it when people dont like the idea of a stay at home mom...hahaha anyway sige me going na actually di ako aalis pero might as well stop this too long post....

man the prom nga pala...i still dont have a date...shit...anyway...heart aches not for the reason of prom but beacuse of all the little stupid things ive been doing...im so sory honestly...