Saturday, January 27, 2007
homealone

silence...
this was a gift i considered myself having before...
i never quite understood why i liked being quiet and silence in general
and now that i have been talking more than usual and sometime actually looking forward to the noise..sometimes doing really stupid things
i suddenly remembered exactly why i stopped liking casual conversation/surprises and or the usual talking with people...

stupid, stupid me...i never really do learn, do i?

well dont get me wrong... im actually okay with talking with people, and sometimes its really quite enjoyable. (depending who you are with) but right now i am enjoying the quiet and peaceful sound of a house at 4:42 in the morning...

update:
7:27 am

just wanted to thank a person though this is really not a appropriate... you actually made me really happy this morning...haha like you actually would miss me if i wasnt there...that my presence would make a difference... thank you so much.... like i said before..some conversations i quite enjoy :) you cant imagine how much your simple gesture made me happy :P... though you actually might be able to...haha thats all... you know who you are(i hope).. i dont have to say your name right? ^_^

Thursday, January 25, 2007
class pic

wala lang... i was looking around whats left of the photos in my storage and i saw this...haha wala lang it seems like so long ago...but its not we seem happy :)) walang gaanong hell weeks non diba? haha grabe kakaiba na :P oh well cute parin tayo ^_^.at naalala ko na wala pa tayong class pics...saan naba pumunta mga yon?

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Careers

careers..hayyy

What brought up this topic? well some number of days ago in HR class classmates wrote things they thought that would best shout you for your career. i received the following:
-accountant
-teacher/ mathematician/prof
-bank cashier
-scientist
-pro. artist (cartoonist,graphic design illustrator ng children's books)
-chemist
-writer/author
-engineer
-scientific calcu-maker
-scriptwriter of a great tv show
-lawyer
-madre/ RA sister
-businesswoman
-at iba pa
ive never really imagine my self as an accountant, bank cashier, scientist, pro. artist cartoonist, graphic design or illustrator ng children's books, chemist, engineer, scientific calcu-maker (haha this was kind of funny :P), scriptwriter of a great tv show, lawyer or a businesswoman...

i've always wanted to be a teacher believe it or not... i love teaching people and them learning something... it in a sick and psychotic way makes me feel useful... well i guess the only thing stopping me is that i might not be good with kids @_@ God thats scary... with that fact that means the other thing i want is also an impossible feat. hehe i also before wanted to be a nun... haha can you see me as a nun? well i thought it would be fun to you know not worry so much at just to social work and pray... i like writing...but i don't think ive got the creativity in me to fill such a demanding job....same goes for the artistic thing... hayyy

ive always dreaded the "career" talk... it means were finally growing up... a part of me doesnt really want that... because growing up eventually leads to one thing

death

haha lets just not talk about that right now.... :P sige thats about it...wala lang just wanted to share...

PS nag swimming kami today spooooooooooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch FUUUUUN!!! grabe wala lang i loved it so much... though sayang may take-a-bath arrangements na... oh well basta i love swimming so much i can brave showing my fat thighs and arms with only a slight care because i wouldnt miss out on swimming even if i had a fever... even if it turns out im not that good anymore :P i dont mind i just love the water... haha one time i want to skinny dip... :)) wala lang its a fun dream...

Monday, January 22, 2007
S b C r A T a T i E n R

a new realization... when in a moment of surprise one can really act in the stupidest way imaginable and say the stupidest thing you can think of. One comes to think that if in that moment of surprise they are actually showing who they really are and in every other moment of their life they are simply suppressing every natural urge they have to be themselves and be the ass they are meant to be....

haha its all in theory anyway... just please don't put me in situations where i have no time to think because thats exactly what's going to happen. I'm not going to think and I'll probably do something I'll regret and you'll hate me for. hayyy its hard to have a slow mind.


so today we had our IP defense. fun wasnt it? well i mean we did okay and its finally over. all those days spent in someone else's house and all those times getting to eat out and accumulating fat just in time for the prom. well it started out normally. me praying so hard to God that we wouldnt get picked but deep in my gut i knew we would. and i know nearly every group said that but i honestly had a really bad sense tingling in me telling me that in was meant to be group 2. hay and as looserish as this may sound i cried...becuase it was actually really hard to take it in that we would be presenting when we were really not prepared.
*thank God i attended all the meetings....i didnt have to study the paper that much :P
so there we did present and it wasnt that bad... haha some people say. i think i pissed ms off one time or another... oh we also had the CEM tests and they are a pain in the neck...literally...the neck. got some test results too.... not what i expected but i did deserve them...considering i should have studied more... my dad said no one in my family studies much...except my older sister who, he says, studies too much and my mom who, according to him, thinks no one studies enough. haha thank God i have successfully and unintentionally beaten out the idea of "expectations for marie" out of her system...and to her i am now the families "special child" haha it kind of fits in a way i guess. but sometimes when no one expects anything from you it tends too sting a little... i guess it just one of those emo needs we all have...

i got really of track didnt i? oh well... proms comming up really quick.... yeah we're all growing up so fast too. have any of you watched as told by ginger? well there's the episode where they graduate and the butterflies represent a certain thing i wont say... well thats how i kind of feel.... im just hopping they wont fly away forever... God i can imagine next year...what if i go to a different section? on my final year at Assumption... i cant even think of another section i'd be comfortable in... haha is that how pathetic my social skills are? and i cant believe how stupid i am to lecture about moving on when if i put myself in their shoes i'd probably..i dont actually no... i dont actually want to imagine it.


okay so i dont really know what my topic for this entry is...well i guess like me it all over the place... and only makes sense if you actually read it. haha...wow its kind of fun sharing to a blog... its like why people share sometimes more openly with strangers...because they never will have to see them again therefor eliminating the possibility of them discriminating against you...haha did that make sense? anyway better get going... why? because

Friday, January 19, 2007
Colot of the sky

we only get to choose once. every decision we make is final. and every mistake we make is permanent. you can not reverse the past... only hope for a future.

Its been one of the most hectic times in my life and so far the most loop-di-loops in my roller coaster of life. (sorry for the super lame terms :P) and not the really big loop but several nauseating loops over and over again never giving me a break. and sometimes it just felt like too much... like i couldn't handle it anymore. it seemed like i couldn't turn to anyone...but i knew some people were there :) i guess you could call them my barf bags ^_^ thanks barf bags you caught my barf before it splattered all over me. sorry you had to feel it though.

so there all in all its been like shit with sugar on top...i cant wait for the relief after letting it all go. it feels nice doesn't it? :) hahaha

nothing much has happened though. i mean all thats new/done and old is
1. dress for the prom
2. tapos na yung mga 3rd QT
3. 1st line of 8 ko sa algeb (ata)
4. may date na ako (na di ko kilala)
5. masikip dress ko
6. wala paring guy na friend
7. made drawing na may color
8. didnt feel chirstmas
9. finished IP paper
10. madami pa ata pero im just not sure

hahahahahaha so so far yan lang halos life ko :) well actually ang daming parts na hindi na makwento madaming panahon na naiwan nalang sa puso ko...well ganyan naman talaga diba? paglilipas ang panahon...madaming nagiiba...misan gusto mo nalang pumigil..pero paano yon gumagalaw parin sila? hahaha labo sige so next time again? kelan kaya yon? seguro after pa nung IP defense o after ng prom :) wala lang labooanness hahahaha sige hahahaha okay?

okay

isang status muna ^_^

"you melt my heart not with the moon nor the sun but with the stars at night, beautiful, indescribable love and like the stars, only knowing its gone...when its already left."

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