Monday, January 22, 2007
S b C r A T a T i E n R

a new realization... when in a moment of surprise one can really act in the stupidest way imaginable and say the stupidest thing you can think of. One comes to think that if in that moment of surprise they are actually showing who they really are and in every other moment of their life they are simply suppressing every natural urge they have to be themselves and be the ass they are meant to be....

haha its all in theory anyway... just please don't put me in situations where i have no time to think because thats exactly what's going to happen. I'm not going to think and I'll probably do something I'll regret and you'll hate me for. hayyy its hard to have a slow mind.


so today we had our IP defense. fun wasnt it? well i mean we did okay and its finally over. all those days spent in someone else's house and all those times getting to eat out and accumulating fat just in time for the prom. well it started out normally. me praying so hard to God that we wouldnt get picked but deep in my gut i knew we would. and i know nearly every group said that but i honestly had a really bad sense tingling in me telling me that in was meant to be group 2. hay and as looserish as this may sound i cried...becuase it was actually really hard to take it in that we would be presenting when we were really not prepared.
*thank God i attended all the meetings....i didnt have to study the paper that much :P
so there we did present and it wasnt that bad... haha some people say. i think i pissed ms off one time or another... oh we also had the CEM tests and they are a pain in the neck...literally...the neck. got some test results too.... not what i expected but i did deserve them...considering i should have studied more... my dad said no one in my family studies much...except my older sister who, he says, studies too much and my mom who, according to him, thinks no one studies enough. haha thank God i have successfully and unintentionally beaten out the idea of "expectations for marie" out of her system...and to her i am now the families "special child" haha it kind of fits in a way i guess. but sometimes when no one expects anything from you it tends too sting a little... i guess it just one of those emo needs we all have...

i got really of track didnt i? oh well... proms comming up really quick.... yeah we're all growing up so fast too. have any of you watched as told by ginger? well there's the episode where they graduate and the butterflies represent a certain thing i wont say... well thats how i kind of feel.... im just hopping they wont fly away forever... God i can imagine next year...what if i go to a different section? on my final year at Assumption... i cant even think of another section i'd be comfortable in... haha is that how pathetic my social skills are? and i cant believe how stupid i am to lecture about moving on when if i put myself in their shoes i'd probably..i dont actually no... i dont actually want to imagine it.


okay so i dont really know what my topic for this entry is...well i guess like me it all over the place... and only makes sense if you actually read it. haha...wow its kind of fun sharing to a blog... its like why people share sometimes more openly with strangers...because they never will have to see them again therefor eliminating the possibility of them discriminating against you...haha did that make sense? anyway better get going... why? because