Tuesday, September 26, 2006
sweet corn i love

"wana say somethinig, wana feel something, wana think there's something there "
been thinking and found out im in love

haha joke lang naniwala ka naman... anyway to the real topic....

my body hurts...as in its painful...ouch as in ouch hahaha then it turns out i also have so bummer twice over. anyway...lets cut to the chase.felt bad then good then bad again then good :D it fun to talk to people and fun to debate with yourself. weeeee... yun lang actually...well nag eng thingy na kami man...okay naman masaya sila at galing ng groupmates ko hahaha ang tatalino nila. patapos yon weeeee...game bukas...nothing significant yet ng yari... boring...na masaya... so yan lang in short ito pinaka shortest post ko ever... oonga pala not ment kami mag usap ng isang tao kasi dis ng dis sya o ako pag nag usap kami..hahaha yan naman ang sign from God. haha bawal pala kami maging kaibigan patapos minsan di naman nag sesend yung reply niya o message ko...hayyy yan naman ang confusing anyway bye na matutulog na ako...jokers manonood ng tv hehe :P

Saturday, September 23, 2006
(knocks on wood)

one time i was told something that strangely hurt me alot. I got kind of sad. today i learned something (related to that other something) that made me feel kind of hurt (more that the first time). it was like what i thought i wanted turned out to hurt more.

what hurt so much about it? im actually not sure. mabye it was the finalism (if that is a word) that it showed. maybe it was the pain that it signified. or the possibility that the someone you cared about got hurt. maybe it was the fact the i couldn't do anything to help or make a difference...but most probably it was the realization of stupidity and the fear of sadness and everything that comes with it. so there... i'm not sure but thats what i think it could have been.

anyway enough of that...recently useless things seem to fill my everday. but today wasn't so bad i got to help a friend...even just a small gesture i'm glad i was able to help. though i wish i could go myself saldy my mom has absolutely no trust in my capabilities to be responsible.

i felt like sharing today to about the thing i worte about at the start but sadly time would not allow such a folly (haha ang stupid ko talaga i made sure pa na tama pag gamit ko nung word kaya ni-word search ko pa para di ako mukang bobo na gumagamit ng word na di ko alam si non fol·ly- An act or instance of foolishness. happy ako kasi tama yung pag gamit ko :P di namam pala ako ganyon ka stupid) i took this as a sign that it wasn't the right time. and it took that to help me realize that everyone right now has so many problems that i would be selfish to expect them to listen to me complain my ass of. so in all im kind of glad that i didn't go through with my plan of sharing my damned emotions. I might have even saved someone from having to read my stupid complaints and anoying opinions. i'm actually glad i didn't disturbe anyone.

so on a happier note let me say i love imagining stuf today my sister said that she had a list of things she wants to do before she dies and since i love imagining a fair amount of ideas came to my mind with the same theme as hers... things i'll do before i die

15 THINGS I'LL DO BEFORE I DIE
(in no specific order)

15. travel to all of the counrties (back pack) and w/ a friend/lover/husband...
basta sum1 i can laugh/cry with
[kasama diyan isang or more pa na place sa Philippines na hindi ko pa napupuntahan

14. have children (*yes have children :| )
...not now ofcorse

13. to sleep on the beach w/ stars shinning bright w/ a friend beside me
at either naguusap lang kami
or tahimik lang na nakahawak kamay namin
la lang i really like the idea

12. to be on the side of rain and dry at the same time (litteraly)

11. find/experience romantic love
just to know what it's like

10. to paint/draw (w/ shading na super) something beautiful
...my definition of beautiful

9. to take care of an animal
and i'll name it "tatin"
secet ko nalang kung bakit yan yung pangalan ;))

8. swim naked in a river/lake/ocean w/ someone...na kaibigan
ayoko pool...pero if wala nang clean na real thing magkakasakit nalang ako

7. over come my irrational fear of the dark, hights,being eaten by fishes at something else pa.. pero secret nalang yon hehe(kahit yung maliliit natatakot ako seryoso ako :|)
ex:bunji jump, sky diving, sleeping in the dark,swimming...of some sort

6. finish a story...
and it has to mean something

5. learn to play the guitar
(para yan sa baby ko para makantahan ko sya :P)

4.5 someone to play that thing i want played to me/ kahit ma hear ko lang
na hindi ko sinasabi sakanya

4. become a vegitarian/ healthy person
...im trying but its sooo hard, wala ako masyadong will power

3. walk in really hard rain and have fun optional: w/friend

2. tell the people I love that I love them and i'm so greatful to have know them
[nagawa ko na sa isang tao yon which im happy that i did :) ]

1. to live somewhere completly new...
scary but it would be nice...especialy if you knew
you had a home to go back to

0. to be a good person who lives life and laughs and cries
who makes mistakes but is strong enough to stand again
(bakit ba? sino bang nag sabi counting numbers gagamitin ko?
real number naman 0 ah!! MWAHAHAHAHA)

-1. learn how to cook at take public transpo
(gusto ko talaga mag luto...

pero yung both di ako pinapayagan ng magulang ko)

[-1?!?!! haha wala lang may naisip pa ako eh...hahaha evil lang talata ako)

so yan ang gusto ko gawin seguro mas madami pa pero yan ang mga naisip ko lately. masaya mag pangarap... especialy pag masaya o malungkot.

one of my useless talents =))
wala lang felt like posting it

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desserts todayyadot stressed

dami ring nang yari a...

na notice ko lang well dati..... (nasa dulo yung sinabi ko... pag gusto niyo basahin punta nalang doon. hindi kasi relevant sa pag kwento ng araw ko eh)

geom naka 97 ako weee.. i guess wala lang hindi ko naperfect...yung iisang bagay na dapat magaling ako di ko rin ma perfect... hayyy yung mga matalino sa halos lahat...ang galing nila..had workers at kung marinig niyo lang sila ang sounding matatalino din sila -_- grabe ang hirap pag ang tatalino ng mga kaibigan mo...parang either tumalino ka..o mag feeling bobo... hehe since tamad ako feeling bobo nalang...grabe nung bata sila ang dami nilang ginagawa parang nung bata ata ako parang tumatawa at umiiyak lang ako noon... hehe mababaw talaga at ang arte at talkative ko non... pero okay naman i guess iba iba naman ang mga tao... hahahaha talk is cheep...labo...hahaha napansin ko lang cheep <--bird sound labo dapat at cheap..ano kaya tama..haha oh well.

ano naba next? hmmm... nag lines kami ng isda nung thurs... sa the.. nung 0921 06 masaya pero gross ng konti... super amazed na ako sa mga tanong ginagawa yon araw-araw. maliit pa yung isda namin kaya hahaha seguradong mas mahirap pag malaki...hehehe (first time ko makakain ng ganyong klaseng fried rice...may dinagdag ata silang yung brown na thingy)

nag take kami ng ap test..nadalian sila at ako hindi as usual. pero for the first time mas nagustohan ko yung ap kaysa sa chem. yung chem kasi pag di ka nastress madali naman...seguro. pero pag napanic ka hayy magugulohan ka sa test. o_O

nanalo ang komu!!!! WEEEEEE super parang O_O hahaha pero ^_^ din kasi ang saya...nakakastress talga yun seguro sakanila... buti nanalo sila...super fulfilling seguro yon hehe that's good naman :) kahit di nanalo yung aa sa over all okay naman kasi happy yung iba hehe kaysa wala diba?? so yan go aa at kOmU :D.

absent pa rin si rosalyn :(

birthday ni patrice pargas. happy birthday...

praying na pumasa ako sa chem at ap..at na papasa ako sa english...please lang sana...

oo nga pala sa health dahil nakakatawa talaga sasabihin ko... nag take kami ng self-esteme test. naka - ako hindi lang yon -11 pa wala na ako doon sa list of whatever meaning. haha ako yung somehting and bellow. grabe... hahaha wala ba akong self esteme?? haha meron naman ata. haha baka nag lie ako sa test.. hahaha baka baka dapat +20 ako or something :)) ang yabang ko naman non. hehe.

cle i am stressed...oh well...

sa batch encounter masaya naman :) okay naman nasa multiply ko yung pics :) weeee... maries' multiply so yan na masaya yung pag tulog gising kain spanding time. running. stuf.. and other...stuf.. hahaha lamig nung paa ko. weee... (wala pala nung nag groups and games kasi bawa daw mag dala ng cam non...kaya ganyon.

oo nga pala pupunta pala ako doon sa teaching thiny... kahit ang hectic ng buhay... :)

punyetang postulates, takteng theorems, lintek na lines at angles. hahaha naalala ko lang dati nung naasar ako sa geom test nung nag aaral kasi ang daming kailangan imemorize. hahaha wala lang

oonga pala sorry nalang kung ang panget ng entry ko today...natatmad lang ako at nawawala sa mood na mag sulat eh anong magagawa ko diba? so yan kahit ang gulo gulo yan ang nang yari sakin kung may kulang oh well... :( sana wala...

weeeeeee

start nasa first part katuloy to nung front.....
.......pa pero napansin ko lang. (bawal ba makapansin sa isang bagay na alam mo na? masama ba? kung masama de wag mong basahin. ang laki naman ng problema mo kung binabasa mo to patapos ayaw mo naman... wow ang strage mo labo...joke lang ha. anyway) yung bagay nga na sasabihin ko bago istart ko yung sharing ko about what's been happening this hell/strange/maturing/heaven/headache/brain buster/memory/feeling all sorts of things year is na i noticed na minsan/madalas yung mga tao kung super stressed/ vain/may "i'm the most important complex" kapag nag tatanong about sa isang bagay more often then not tatanong silang ng question related sa problem nila. patapos kung sinagot mo na...(baka hindi pa sila makinig talaga) sasabihin nila yung mga thingys nila about that said topic.(mas mabuti yung senerio kung tinanong mo yung question sakanila...kaya nila tinanong sayo para matanong mo sila o para mabring out yung subject... pero pag super nag-i-itch na sila i share sasabihin nalang nila kahit di mo na itanong). wala lang parang kahit alam ko minsan lang yan nang yayari parang malungkot parin pagisipan na gayon minsan ang komunikation ng tao... ns kahit may problema yung isa di mapansin nung isa pa dahil masyadong sya into sa problem niya...which is not her fault...malabo...haha so anyway on wiht the story...

Wednesday, September 20, 2006
procrastinism...my profession

wow..matagal na matagal (tatlong araw) nga ako hindi nag blo-blog. :) hayyyy bakit kaya well as usual nag blog ako para hindi mag aral...hay hindi na natuto..well pirst yung fil na super iniyakan ko pa. alam niyo ba hahaha pumasa naman ako wow...lower 8-ties pero still para sakin parang 92 na yon :)) hahaha babaw... anyway...

ang daming nag kakasakit!!! nako grabe...thank God kung di ka nag kakasakit...mahirap yon... oo nga pala para sa mga nag participate sa mga eco thingys God bless!!!! :D kaya niyo yan!! it's not naman about the winner..it's bout the message... hahaha pero masaya parin manalo... cheche at rosalyn sana gumaling na mga sakit niyo...ang panget pa naman ng weather.. :( sana okay na kayo soon :( [-O<>

yung isa na.anong tawag doon? oo nga pala yung sat. classes...ang shit non!!!! grabe wala yung mga subjects na kailangan ko!!!! >:( grabe!!! wala nam lang filipino o ap o well may iba pa!!! grabe :( nakakaasar..pero alam ko maraming matutulungan ang sat classes na yon... mahirap nga talaga kung ang stupid mo sa pinaka madaling bagay...at na gegets mo minsan ang mahihirap...shit talaga. well atleast may nagets pa ako... thank God for that. hahaha baka mag classes ako..ewan lang if it worth it to brush up on my skills...labo amy skills na pala :)) yabang!!!

nung pe....sorry talaga kung minsan ang hog ko sa bolla...promise ipapasa ko nalang parati... pomise talaga... hindi ko na iho-hog... i'll try my best...haha minsan kasi nakakalimutan ko nalng bigla may mga team mates nga pala... hehe marie <--estupido hehe... anyway masaya yung basket... kahit natalo kami...masaya... pero hindi ko na ihohog yung bola promise... hahaha

yung ap at chem na sabay ang test... PUtang Ina!!! well tama lang na gawin nila yan ...pero pwede pa ako magalit!!!!... oo nga plaa sa mga tanong ayaw ng mura..kapag naririnig niyo ako sa chem shit...ang stupid ko haha yung sa chem...parati nalng ako naririnig ni miss sinasabi yung SHI!!! patapos walng T pa... ang baba na seguro ng GMRC ko... hahaha kaya pala naaalala niya yung pangalan ko... haha dahil sa mga shi ko...

geom test..sana lang maka 95... yun yung wish ko..yun nalang saving grace ko sa buhay ko (probably not pero more dramatic kung sinabi ko yan) ...so istupido ko kasi... hayyyy... sige not istupido just really confused... :)) o_O hahaha... bawal ang bobo... just understands differently...haha kaya mga autistic hindi stupid...iba lang pagisip nila...not the norm pero dosent mean their stupid!!! yes!!! bait nga nila madalas eh :D...

hmmm yung sa the..wala pa akong group para doon sa on the job thingy..hahaha :)) own group ba??? o mag bibigay si miss??? oh well kung anong matira akin nalang yon :D hahaha... kahit ano okay sakin :) kasi if your not willing to bend de masisira ka lang sa hangin...

today nga pala sa bus nag logic games kami...ang SHET!!!! grabe Hhahahaha nagets later on pero hahaha sumakit ulo ko doon :P haha slow ko talaga :P anyway...naalala ko yung bawan batangas ginawa yung apple, orange, ensymada... mix mix mix... hahaha awwww...miss ko talga...hahaha alam niyo ba may secret ako :P may iniwan ako doon sa bawan batangas...di mawawala doon hahaha nasa dagat!!! haha nugn nasa boat nahulog cap ko!!! hahaha sila ixa, angela yung mga group mates ko lang may alam :)) naalala ko lang bigla kaya shinare ko na :D grabe halos fave cap ko panaman yon...oh well dapat di materialistic diba?? so yan lesson na yung sakin ni God...hahaha may remembrance sakin ang Bawan...(sorry i poluted the ocean..i didn't mean it naman...tatalon sana ako pero naalala ko nasa boat kami na gumagalaw... natatakot panaman ako sa shark... baka may shark doon... buti di na ako tumalon non... honestly ha tatalon sana ako)

oh well sige bye muna :D next time uli :D

marie on 6:32 PM
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
preety or not, that is the question

hahaha since im procrastinating i'll post this...hahahaha...yuck corny ng title ko hahahaha :))

my sister as some of you may know is very picky and like my brother doesn't think may people are preety...other than herself so you can imagine my amazement when she told me 4 of my friends where preety 4 wow that was kind of a big number...so anyway if your my sister dont kill me becuase i said it here hehehe please don't :P anyway the 4 people are:

Sibyl Layag
Sarah Lazaga
Rosalyn Ramos
(kahit daw nakakatakot siya)
Angelique Doctor

yan daw para sakanya ang mga magaganda kong kaibigan... hahaha ewan ko ba sa taste ng kapatid ko ang picky niya... hahaha well

-preety-
alam ko dapat hindi vain at that beauti is only skin deep pero wala lang sometimes i can't help but wonder kung you know... what is beauti to others... not that i want to please them or anything im just curious what they look for in others. hahaha thats all. (haha at dahil couriuse are sa pagiisip ng mga tao...hehe kahit di ko man lang maspell)... hahaha gusto ko sana maging phsychologist pero alam ko di ako ganyon ka aprochable at magaling sa pag research kaya baka di ako ganyon ka galing sa field na yon...haha but we'll see malayo (lying) pa ang college alam nyo ba this year ko lang na perfect ang pag spell ng college dati collage pa...hahaha sorry na..at kung mali pa yung spelling ko paumanhin nalang :P

marie on 11:29 AM
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Saturday, September 16, 2006
look between the lines

ito yung unangn title "love..i think i had it all along but never knew it was there" eh ang haba :)) kaya pinalit ko.

wait alam mo ba though this may sound chessy and like i am a big fat lier pero i'll say this. yesterday at first i didn't feel all that, well on one word, good (though i dont think that gives it justice) anyway after talking to the priest about something and thinking out side in the fields..i actually realized something...wow...should i say it here...

......well i had been complaing about something...and well i realized i had been selfish...really selfish when in truth... i did feel that way...and well now i regret not saying it... you know though i said and thought that i didn't know what it ment i actually that day, through all the memories i look back to and how i felt... i actually understood it. and i actually felt reallt light... (actually ang dami kong actually na nasabi) hehe. then well i can proudly say na mahal ko family ko at mahal ko din friends ko super...sabi nga sakin ni father when i asked him what love was (yes ang kapal ko tinanong ko pa yan sa father...) sabi niya some stuff patapos sabi niya din na nafefeel lang yon at just imagine na pag wala sila what would you feel...then naisip ko... void...emptyness...at marami pa kaya...hehe well naisip ko lang what it was like before... i guess you never know how sad you are till you've got a taste of what's better. well yan yung nang yari well funny si brother don at masaya nadin...di ko masyado naka konect doon sa close eyes thingy niya at parang dahil sa sigaw niya na wala yung effect sakin at dahil ang specific at di makakakonect sa lahat... at okay sakin yung 1st exersise... hahaha natodo ko ata pag iyak ko doon... next yung second napigil ko pa...buti na ubusan ng time sa pag share...nung last napaluha lang ng konti...kasi di ako makapag relate...masaya din yung 1 at 2 kasi i got to learn more about some people at nakausap ko yung usually di ko kinakausap. masaya nadin...(weird na kagroup ko si rosa sa lahat nung thingys...weird...) anyway yung pagkain okay naman heheh nung una halos masuka na ako pero yung iba okay naman... arte ko talaga :P

nung mass masaya ;)) di ko nalang sasabihin kung bakit pero nung isang beses may dumating na bug thingy patapos lumapit kay patty talaga natakot siya at i dont blame her natakot din ako hehe :P haha pero the mass was actually fun... haha kahit daming mali...nakasaya yon at nung sa pari masaya din...lved his confession saying..parang ininterview ko.. pero i learned something... saya mag hug ng tao...especially si... ;)) labo patapos sorry mae....kasi naman may kilala akong sarah mae kaya natawag kitang sarah...sorry talaga... dinner patapos pumunta ako doon sa place nung defreezing kahit madilim at nagisip ako... grabe nakahelp yon sakin... nakausap ko si God...patapos alam mo... hahaha nung pumunta ako doon sa taas kung saan nag simula... nag usap kami ng onti ni angel..hehe pero biglang aalis na so di ko nakwento lahat..oh well fate nga talaga madaming pinaplano
nung aalis na naiwan ko yung letter ni richel at nung akin sana maka balik ako sa reco house sa mon at sana di natapon...sorry talaga richel... at nung sa multi lumakad kami i rosa awhile...sa dilim masaya...i like walking... especially with frineds nakakapagisip ako ang stuf when i walk... at when i run umookay feeling ko... patapos alam niyo ba ako last na umalis na third year!!! grabe pero masaya ng konti...heheh si miss santos...ang cute hahaha grabe parang bata din. kasi nung bored na sya tumaas baba sya doon sa tinatakbuhan ng mga bata yung pataas doon sa guilid nung multi dapat bawal pero ginagawa niya patapos kumanta pa sya ng konti at kinwento niya nung bata sya na pinapaglaro an niya yung animal...hehe torture...labo pero mabait sya :D grabe sana sya nalang teacher natin hahaha di nakakasawa tingnan :)) :P 8 na ako nakaalis ng school galit pa sakin kuya ko nung sinondu niya ako... may utang daw ako sakanya....seryoso sya.... oh well anong magagawa ko diba???

well yun yung reco masaya talga..(.i left out some parts... syempre hahaha) pero kung may tanong kayo sa ym nalang :P o sa totoong buhay which ever you want :D

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well today naman ;)) masaya din today...hahaha kasi pumunta ako kila ate kay para sa group meeting sa english... 8:30...(pero mga 9 ako pumaspk kasi nahiya ako ang aga..nakakain pa ako ng taho) haha in fareness ganda ng kwarto niya (dahil sa mirror na magic, cute na teddy na dapat ninakaw ko na at hindi ko napipigilan i-hug, dahil sa nakapost sa room niya, dahil sa cute niyang gamit at dahil sa mga books niya at "stuf"...ganda din ilan sa damit ni ate kay..) patapos nag heart to heart kami habang wala si fran (masaya mag heart to heart pag magisa lang kayo at hindi nasa public place..hehe) nanood kami ng topmodel ...patapos sabi ni ate kay plano dumating si angel...hahaha sayang nung dumating si (*note mga 10/11 to) fran wala si angel patapos dumating si (*note mga 10/11 nito) cheche patapos kumain kami ng junk food muna at coke at nanood ng beauti and the geek... patapos kumain ng junkfood at nag usap about nung english...at 12..kumain ng lunch...patapos nanood ng lake house..ganda...hahaha napaiyak nga ako...sama nila..tumawa pa sakin... :( hahaha pero after non nag usap again about english ...alittle... patapos kumain ulit..ata.. patapos super busog na..hahaha patapos nung 4/3 ata pumunta kami ng basketball..haha nahihiya kami kasi daming tao pero nag laro kami...(sayang angel masaya sana nakapunta ka) ...di panaman kami ganyon ka marunong... ang bossy ko din sorry guys... :P patapos nung mga 4/5... bumalik kami at nanood ng movie uli... nakakatawa to kasi may super nude na sceen (di gree nude lang) parang kami " o_O oh no!?!?!!!" hahahaha :)) grabe pumasok pa nanay ni ate kay..nakakatawa ganda ng timing... hehe patapos title 16 candles ata masaya naman super chessy nung ending grabe...hahaha :)) hehe sayang ssp di ka din naka punta sayang pero okay lang yon kasi kakalipat mo lang ng bahay kaya it's all good :D hehehe patapos nung aalis na sinundo namin si cheche sa junction at nakaalis na rin...(6 natapos yung meeting :D grabe tagal namin mag meeting no? 9 hours din yan...pero it was fun naman :D)

so yan basically days ko hahaha kung may tanong ym lng at call if you want... :D hahaha as if ang daming nagbabasa nito diba? hahahaha labo.... pero yan am happy i know that minamahal din ako ng mga ilang tao at am happy to know minamahal ko din sila hehe... labo ba? pero yan...

oonga pala with the adive of someone ilalagay ko to dito at kung kilala niyo ako at kilala niyo pa mga minamahal ko sa buhay...feel free to lead them to this part...haha para malaman din nila..kahit di ko masabi...hahah labo no? pero haha kahit public blog to okay lang :D kasi wala lang... bakit ko naman kasi itatago kung totoo... am i ashamed? hahaha hindi ata..at kahit mahiya ako later na nilagay ko okay lang kasi hahaha ganyan ako... talkative...pag walang kausap...hahaha :)) labo talaga... anyway to na...(sibs...wala lang special mention..hehe nabasa mo na to :) )

"I wanted to say was that I am very greatful that I met you and even if I'm not that important to you, even if I'm the last thing on your mind for me that dosen't matter because your still the same person who makes me happy and your still that special person how makes everthing seem better when in truth their not. Every day seems more bareble with that smile of yours and everthing seems more meaning full when you say it is. I know i haven't done the same to you and though I wish I had, I know you need someone better. So all I can do is love you and pray that one day you'd meet someone who would give you what you gave to me."

anyway yung dapat ipapakita ko sa ilang mga tao na..."special sakin" pero nahiya ako... hahaha at bawal din mag palangka..haha kaya blog nalang para mas nakakahiya :)) =)) :)) wala lang hahaha sana di kayo gaano naweirdohan sakin... :P

isa pa

" and last i just want to say this that most often we forget how important things are untill one day it's to late and most often we want alot of things when it turns out all we needed was someone already there we spend our time looking for what we think is right and end up just hurting those who already open their arms to us but sometimes, if were lucky we get to hold on and enjoy even for just that last moment
to realize the value that's been there all along"

Thursday, September 14, 2006
oil and cameras

today as interesting... really it was.
kind of
lets see...english, just discused. Geom, did stuf was kind of funny..i got some of the stuf so that made me feel kind of normal. recess...cram session for fil...envied...about the guimaras...thank god nag ym ako kahapon ng gabi... nakabasa ako ng konti at mali ko lang sa quiz ay yung sakit sinulat ko "feaver" yan namn ang spelling ng fever...-__- grabe. patapos chem..nag aral ng fil..nung fil...bumagsak...nung lunch malungkot...nung the...na talsikan ng oil sooo many times na hindi ko na mabilang..ako yung nag mix nung food sa pan most of the time...sakit man... patapos sarap nung amin...soo happy... :P pero i felt masyadong nag yabng group namin...i mean humingi na lang nga kami ng pagkain...eh ganyon pa attitude namin..pero kasama ako doon..mali din ata mga sinabi ko. anyway next..ap... @_@ sooo confused..oonga nung bumalik kami NAWAWALA GAMIT NAMIN!!!! anyway may point si miss sa pag kuha sa gamit namin so im not sure kung magiging asar ako oh naiirita lang...o dapat mag change nga ako...malabo..basta i know tama yung ginawa niya..over lang ng konti... then mass paa sa cle...weeee ewan ko kung excited ako o naaasar para sa reco namin...di ako makakadala ng cam... :( grabe di ko naman alam na dapat 5 lang at dapat mag sabi sakanila...nalaman ko nalang nung nakasulat na sa board... :( parati nalang ganyon oh well it is faith...hehe excuse ng mga walang alam... labo... (alam mo naman reson kung bakit kumukuha ako ng photos diba? yun yung reason...kaya masakit para sakin na hindi mag take...pero okay lang...i guess it's a lesson i've got to learn...na dapat hindi material ang isipin ko at if makakalimot nga ako ng memories ko...i guess thats okay...pinlano rin ni God para sakin... oh well... sana maganda yung reco ayoko madisapoint sila..actually hindi na maganda kun di meaning ful mostly. hehe yan nalang muna

actually isa pa...for this whole week masama feeling ko...hayyy either emo...o masakit lang talaga o physical... hehe lahat seguro ganyon... pero minsan feel ko lang mag arte...kaya yan hope mas maganda yung next week

oo nga pala pupunta kami sa bahay ni ate kay sa sat...weee for english nakakabahan ako :-S grabe sana maayos magagawa namin... kahit maayos lang at sana mag enjoy kami :D yung din important... sige yan nalng talaga.

Monday, September 11, 2006
gingle bells

in memory of the 9/11 victims let us pray.
for me it wasn't that they were americans but that they where people
who the hell would want to kill anyone
that is just shit
so there that's in memory for them.

oh yeah araw ko was like walking on a track to sick-a-holic-ville where people just want to get sick so they make up all these funny excuses to pretend their sick but actually their liers. so ganyon aaw ko i felt sick but wasn't sure if i was. i could be a good actress or i really did feel bad... so that was a confusing day... and my head god danm hurts.... when i feel bad i swear... sorry... or i could be acting... wow im good :)) as if anyway tests are near so i can now screaw my life away... 68s' here i come... oonga pala wait wag nalang sumasakit na ulo ko uli...next time nalang

at 2:57 it's shity early

soooo early god danm it. doing hw i didn't do the whole week... :( stupidity strikes again
hayyyy
anyway new things in my life ( this is just another of my tech. of procrastination)

look at my profile there are new pics and stuf so check it out

got a new title for my blog its up there "m.e.M.O.R.i.E.s" if you didn't get it it's like saying (hopefully) more memories labo :P pero i tried to make it seem like that... hehe forgive me for the labuanness i add to the world...gone na is my unang title of "S + C + 2L= Living" :))

amor gave my number to one of her friends named something...cell just died and i forgot it started with a j im sure of it.

then learned im going to cebu (maybe only though) on the dec. 29 or something. weeee such a joy (...hear my sarcasm flow right out of my mought along with the rolling eyes following it. if only i had more eyes and an ass that could speak then i could really show how much i'd love to go)

sleep right now i need... would like to have bb na...kahit competition na i dont care i want to sweat na... god that lets me forget my problems... endorphins are my favorite drug...(did i spell it right?..oh well what ever drug it is you get out of exercising i love it to bits)

what else is new... hmmmmm... malapit nang test god im just gonna fail those...weeee cant wait to see the shitty grades im gonna get...

sorry to those who are reading this just feeling kind of bad... hayyy... and i was happy last friday... and sat... god happness doesnt last for long. but then it's already night time and i should be asleep, but i should be happy coz im a night person... but then again it's actually morning so screw this i'm cranky... :( great... im glad toms not our reco...i've sworn so much...it probably not funny...

i remember something funny no is 2:51 at 2:00 when i was writing my ak reflection i was really trying my best not to write "..." hahaha :)) god i've gotten so used to using it... hehehe oh well and also my side comments "(....)" and also my "...hehe and ..haha" those i had to take out... opppssss oh well anyway it's early and i've got to go... gonna sleep in school weeeee o_O

Friday, September 08, 2006
padugtong

......oonga pala forgot to say sa health grabe nakakahiya nung mag prepresent na kami ang strange namin super lahat kami out of character.. grabe sakin pa yung lead...bweset hahaha grabe nakakahiya pinapalapit kami ni rosa ni janine nung nag sosory sceen na. grabe nag hug pa tuloy kasi ang lapit na. hayyy pero hahaha nakakatawa naman daw sabi ni amor... hehe kasi parang di daw kami..labo hahaha basta

.....anyway right now ang happy ko..sorry kung malabo pero happy ako :)) secret ko nalang kung bakit :)) grabe natutuwa talaga ako..labo anyway...hehe be happy everyone :D malapit na reco sana masaya.....

mcdo at hell week

.........wow after one hell of a hell week got some sort of a break. hehe today is friday...thank God. grabe namamatay na ako sa pagod. can't wait to sleep na. grabe soooo pagod. pero i like my ap project. kasi pinaghirapan ko yon...hehe kahit ang bagal ko gumawa (kaya umabot ng 7-3 kasi ang dami kong ginagawa inbetween at mabagal lang talaga ako) nasiyahan ako kasi wala lang proud...

..........natakot nga ako nung pauwi na kasi plano namin ni angel mag mcdo eh well umuulan at wala akong transpo papunta. hehe naki sama nalang ako sa bus nila at tumigil naman yung ulan. grabe saya sa bus nila. naiingit ako. dati ganyon bus namin...pero oh well ganyan talaga ang buhay. hehe nagulat ako nung biglang nag on yung radyo...haha lahat kami nagulat kasi kala namin may nang yari...hehe wala naman pala. kala ko may nag puputokan o may nag banga sa bus... buti nalang wala. anyway nakita ko bahay ni angel yung looban. hehe ang cute nung mga aso niya :P grabe sayang di ko nahawakan... ang wild kasi daw nila. patapos after a while bumalik kami sa aa kasi maynaiwan daw na buss mate. eh okay naman sakin. nakastay pa ako sa bus nila... miss ko na talaga yung ganyon. hehe. anyway. nag kantahan patapos nung naka punta na kami sa mcdo kumain at nag usap kami. hehehe. super saya (well para sakin masaya). hehe kasi super stressed din. grabe naka relax...kahit ang daming weird na tao... (cant believe naalala niya...nag dasal panaman ako na makakalimutan niya...nako si God talga di sinasagot lahat ng prayers....baka sign yon hehe labo) @_@ hehe. anyway yon nakauwi na ako tynipe ko to hehe labo...as in its the moment...

.........anyway the other days muna....na kwento ko naba? anyway ulitin ko nalang. nung thurs. nag planting kami well masaya yon. i love working with nature. kahit parang ang plastic ng aa at least naka tulong din yon. diba? anyway yon patapos ang putek ng sapatos ko pero masaya din yon..hehe labo. well after yon nag laro kami ni rosalyn doon sa book ni Albertine masaya hehe kasi nakakaratle sa brain... patapos dear time...it wasn't so dear...pero nabasa ko yung book ni rosalyn na 'baha' grabe ganda...hehe nakakatuwa yung picture... may mga totoo at hindi. patapos cute din yung character. nung umuwi na ako gumawa ng ap project. patapos fri. na so nung start...okay naman. pero sinermonan na naman kami (well yesterday about nung late na kami sa mass by ms. AP...nahihiya daw siya maging tic namin :| ) patapos nagalit si ms. LAB kasi paulit ulit daw lang ugali namin at that their expecting so much from us..patapos dapat daw trato samin mga grade 5 ata..patapos naisip ata niya 'nako masyadong mataas yon babaan pa natin' patapos sabi niya grade1 well oky lang sakin kasi wala akong ginagawang masama non kaya i dont feel guilty..pero naaawa ako doon sa taong pinapagalitan dahil sa ugali namin minsan. they dont deserve that treatment naman. anyway nung lunch...parang may sakit si amor patapos naaantok siya kaya natulog siya sa knees ko... patapos pumunta kami sa clinic. patapos nag pantomine kami..@_@ alam mo ba sira zipper ng pants ko @_@ grabe so shocked...hehehe kaya nilagay ko ng tape..hehe yun yung resourceful. labo..anyway. yun yung nangyari...wait...wensday...may nang yari ba? hmmm...wala lang super stressed week very little sleep...kaya hehehe yan yung nang yari... just felt sleep most of the week...pero masayang start ng break :D three day lang naman and one is almost over na....awwww... oh well haha daldal ko talaga anyway...saya din... weeeee
.........oonga pala one thing sabi ni sir sa cle which struck me... kasi well sabi niya those who hurt you most are the ones closes to you...(naisip ko na to dati pa...pero when everyone agreed i felt bad...) what happens when you've never really been that hurt? dose it mean walang close sa buhay mo? hmmm oh na wala kang pake...? nakakalingkot isipin... kayanga minsan i wish na masaktan din ako... para mafeel ko na maynakaclose sakin na super kaya may posibilty na masaktan ako...ewan ba.. meron atang akong mechanisim na nagpapalayo sakin kung may nakakalapit na...hehe malabo ba? ewan basta thats all for now...hehe byebye :D

Tuesday, September 05, 2006
fixed internet

.......today was kinda fun... i guess ... well firstly pumunta sa dela paz... super masaya. kala ko nung una ang panget na experience nakakabahan na naeexcite at the same time. patapos wow ang cute talaga nila. yung unang nag welcome nga sakin yung boy sa taas. tumingin sakin at nag smile :D patapos nag hi :P wala lang ang bait niya... kahit di ko kilala. patapos yung class nami grabe ang eager nila :P nakakahappy yon. :P they liked the book na gawa ng group namin. was sooo happy and proud na parang mass na excite sila sa book kaysa sa candy... hehe proud :P patapos
.............nung paalis na at nasa bus...nagulat ako na wala si sibs...patapos sabi nila completo na...nag taka ako... pero di ko sinabi (sssshhhhh) patapos umalis na...nag tataka parin ako...patapos may nag kwento na nahulog siya...into a canal...may sugat...natakot daw sila....(oh my...hindi ko talaga naririnig ang mga news...super slow ko :|)...sayang di niya na experience pero okay naman may next time naman..hehe meron nga sya na hindi namin lahat na experience eh...hehe special. well pinuntahan namin ni rosalyn si sibyl...sa clinic...patapos bumuli ng books si rosalyn...(@_@ sooo ingit want books to pero have to save pa :( ) anyway...next grabe sorry to be vain pero i have to say this... laki ng pimple ko :(( it's underneath my nose so i feel it 24/7 and it's not fun to feal it throb especialy if you feel like barfing (meron ako)...anyway next topic..galing ng kuya ko naayos niya comp namin...we have internet now \:D/ dances with joy...my ym doesn't work...weeeee sire yung archieves...some one shoot me... :( sooo sad... sa sister ko it works naman... bakit akin hindi??? :( so saddd.. very saddd... nothing goes right...oonga pala pupunta kami ng fri sa mcdo...soo hungry na... babaw... pero want to get out din... suffocating in house... watched last episode ng 1th grabe so touched... wow halie at nathan... :x soo wow... hehe sweet nila pero so bitin yung ending.. >:( grabe.. pero nice parin.yung lang muna kasi ayoko na mag salita...labo sulat nga to eh... :( oh well hehehe malabo lang talaga minsan.

card 1st quarter

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.............Just got my grades and im fairly happy...well because the teachers where very nice... kahit I got some low grades on the tests everything went fairly well... lets see it want like this…hehe im okay with showing my grades coz...well I don’t know im not ashamed of them im actualy proud of them coz it’s the first time ive gotten not a grade lower 85 :) hehe mababaw? Yes but still whats there to be afraid of... your gonna make fun of me? Haha it’s already done even if you make fun of me I cant do anything to change my grade anyway. It’ll still be the same so why not just be PROUD :D

Values Education,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,86

Filipino,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,85

Araling Panlipunan......................86

English.........................................85

Chemistry & envi..........................92

Math (geom&a.algeb).................95

PHEM (pe, music, health)..........92

Techno. & liveli. Educ. ...............90

............Hehehe may patern. sayang ngalang yung the kung naka 95 lang sana ako doon ang cute na sana talaga ng report card ko :P grabe so mathimatical nga pagiisip ko.

............Oonga pala nung kinuha ko yung card ko pinuntahan ko yung teachers patapos si sir andie kinuha ba yung report card ko ng hindi nag tatanong sabi niya “anong math grade mo?” patapos nagulat pa sya...hehe naasar pero napatawa rin ako non. Sabi niya din nung nag thankyou ako sabi niya wag daw kasi daw ako daw gumawa ng grade ko. Hehe sweet nun. Patapos pinuntahan ko yung tic(mrs. Henson) namin kasi ang taas masaydo nung grade ko, sabi niya nabaitan lang siya this quarter next quarter mas strict na daw siya...oooohhh no...wala na bagsak na ako..... hehe patapos si fil teatcher (mis. Lala)naman hehe sabi ko happy na ako sa fil ko super happy nga eh..sabi niya dapat hindi daw... sabi din niya forte ko nga daw talaga ang math hindi ang fil... di ba obvious?? Hehe pero yung pinuntahan ko si sir ruel grabe hehe sabi ko “grabe sir ang taas masyado”... nag joke pa sya ng sige palitan natin. =)) napatawa talaga ako doon kasi yung ginawa pa niya na nilagay niya kamay niya sa pocket niya kala ko papalitan niya talaga :P sabi pa nang sister ko sige sir 68 nalang para baliktad =)) grabe patapos tiningan niya card ko patapos sabi niya okay naman daw....patapos pinapat niya ulo ko (don’t know why ginawa akong as...=)) ) anyway sabi niya may nakikita siya sakin ...mabait or something ewan ko na eh…hehe after non pupuntahan ko sana si PE 1^st quarter...pero nahiya ako hahaha kaya hindi nalang. Patapos gusto ko rin sana puntahan si mis hebron pero hindi ko rin napuntahan...saya niyang teacher :P nag hi ako kay ms the at ms etti...tama ba spelling. Hehe anyway masaya lang. Nakakaasar lang na sumama mom ko.... Wala lang di lang ako sanay. Hehe pero ganyan lang yon.

........Anyway napaisip ako sa bahay... nalungkot, pero ewan ko kung bakit. Nagyayarin naman yon sainyo diba? Hehe freak ko pala :P haha yun araw ko basicaly... pumunta kami ng school. Una si alys nakakuha ng card. Sunod ata ako...o nauna ba si lyra? Patapos nan doon din si sam sa list...after ni lyra...o bago...hehe ewan ko pero yun lang yung mga nakasign pa. Mga 8 kami dumating. Happy ako.. .pero sad din... feeling so stupid and normal at the same time how Ironic.

(…….just gibberish not what happened today but my thoughts so if you find that kind of thing boring I sugets you don’t read the next lines hehe actually paragraphs na, this also might start to get confusing kasi bigla lang sasabi ng something but it doesn’t make sense with the sentence before it…just decifer for yourself….)

I know I might be making a big deal about nothing but for me it’s big… so even if the other proponent (hehe tama ba paggamit ng word?) of this “thing” thinks I haven’t said anything too personal or that Im overreacting, sorry. For me everything I’ve said was personal and something I don’t usualy do. I am serious (sometimes lang naman, I like acting like a kid mostly) but this is how I take life…well my thoughts anyway… afraid people will find out behind the big words im a fool pretending to be wise…or smart which ever word fits best… I took a chance with this person… I don’t even remember how. And the last time I took a chance like that I ended up making that person very confused and probably hurt…I don’t want to do that again…

Hmmmm… I cant really describe it. I’m sharing things I shouldn’t share. I’m opening, I think… I don’t think I want to be open…(wounds hurt more the bigger and deeper they are.) im not sure, maybe I don’t want to be her friend so that I could hurt and be alone with my thoughts again or maybe I don’t want because I don’t want to be hurt… it’s so confusing. And sorry if that sounded strange. I feel so stupid saying this to a blog… haha you must think me a psycho, I know I sure do. I also don’t like sharing about my self coz then I feel selfish. See if I talk when will they? Then they might feel like they weren’t able to share their problem or thoughts…then maybe they’d think I’m mean. so there it would be better for both parties if I shut up. I like listenning to people more anyway. Wow do you know how many times I’ve said I, now that’s selfish. Let’s make one sentence with out that word. Okay =)) there it is. If the person who is reading this is the person im talking about… hehe I don’t know I just hope you don’t read this. but if you do please don’t hold this againt me. You said it yourself (or could have imagined it) that a blog is an emotional thing…or something…Im sorry I could be quoting the wrong statement. :P

Anyway that’s about it. I just finished eating dinner. The internet wont work…sooo im just kinda gonna do all my school work tom hayyy I hope I’ll be able to finish it on time.

Friday, September 01, 2006
dyslexia...at araw ko

......grabe before i say anything sasabihin ko to @_@ creepy niyan...hehe visit nalang at your own risk

.......hehe sige ito na yung gustong gusto ko isahre sa world :P grabe close to my heart to... kaya never make fun of anyone with dificulties in life just be happy na hindi ganyan yung sayo... they have it so hard.

.......this paper (hehe this paper parang ang formal :P) will have only a summary of what i've learned and will only show little about what dyslexic people go through. but still i would like to open some minds to the wonder of dyslexia becuase people are fascinating and they are beautiful no matter what... (beauty is relative kaya bahala kayo mag decifer ng meaning nung sentence na yon) . well lest get on with it, at bullet form to kasi i like bullet form at :D tamad eh :))

the meaning

....Dyslexia: (according to my dictionary) "a nervous trouble interfering with the ability to read or comprehend what is read (DYS + lexia: word/speach)"

Dyslexia acording to the time (sept. 8 2003)

• a reading disorder that persists despite good schooling and normal or even abouve average intelligence.
• it is not a brain damage.
• (the people who have this have mormal cerebrums if not extaordinary)
• thinks outside the boxis thought to be a neuroligical writing glitch which makes reading extremely difficuly.
• the belief that dyslexics flip letters, write them backwards is wrong. nearly every child does this though dyslexics do it more.
• the belief that more boys are dyslexic than girls is wrong.boys are simply more likely to be noticed becasue the act out their fustrations.
• if learning disorder is found at the age of around 11 - 17 they can still learn but reading will always be a strugle.
• dyslexics are overrepresented in the top ranks of artists, scientists and business exectutives.
• are often skilled problem solvers, come to solutions in novel (new ata) or surprising anglescan see things in 3-D technicolor or as a multidimensional chess game.
• they are also more likely to drop out of school, withdraw from friends and family or attempt suicide.
• in Asia there is a significantly lower amounts of dyslexics then in the west due to the difference in how asians scripts are processed by the brain ( so di kasama philippines kasi we write like thoes west people)

reason why there could be such a problem:

1. reading has only been here for around 5,000 years only and our brains have yet to evlove certain parts for that porpose alone
2. *little fact* left brain: adept at processing language right brain: attuned to analyzing spatial cues
3. three parts that work fo reading/speaking din ata

• the phoneme producer - vocalize words. (silently or aloud) especialy active for beginners in reading (more on sound of each letter)
  
• the word analyzer - does the complete analysis of the written word. word is pulled apart and letters are linked to appropirate sound (more on sound w/ it all together i.e. meaning of word ata)
  
• the automatic detector - automate the process of recognizing words (reading fast... ex. amor dimaano)
  

what goes wrong?
" a neurological glitch prevents their brains from easily gaining acess to the word alalyzer and the automatic detector"

can dyslexia be reversed...?
.....sabi ng dad ko hindi :-?? well hindi ako sure. pero since nag aral sya about dyslexia he knows more talaga. sabi niya na kahit nakuha mo na yung skills para maovercome yung poblems mo dyslexic ka parin...hehe sabi nung time...pwede ata daw...pag nadetect early.

*"different people respond to different approaches, depending on their nature of their disability and personality."


.......ito na ang ng yari ng week nito. hahaha strange grabe sila. grabe nag smile, smile, sila sakin. weird...may ginawa ba ako??? wala naman ata *_* ...alam ba nila secret ko??? wala naman ata akong secrets... o_O so not sure na...hahaha patapos biglang jinujoke lang ako...hehehe ang uto-uto naman...
.......patapos nung sinabi nila pangalan ko nag away (sortof) sila about my name. hahaha ang stragne non...pero haha sa totoo lang mas gusto ko yung marie...hehe i hate maria and i'm indifferent with michelle...hehe arte...ewan kasi napapasmile ako pag marie..hehe labo..
.......patapos. grabe may nag sabi natitibo sya sakin...hmmm nalalabuan ako doon grabe dalawang tao na ang nag sabi ng parang ganyon...nakakaasar... madali panaman ako maniwala sa tao...ehhh ayoko ang joke na ganyan. nakakahurt ng feelings... ang strange din.. alam ko di ako crush material..(hehe meron bang type of material yon???) anyway wala lang hahaha sana crush ko magsabi ng ganyon sakin hehe pero walang pagasa na non :P hehe dont expect it din :D happy with the way things are :) sige yun lang
....... oo nga pala sabi sakin ni angel mag punta daw kaming mcdo spmetime para kumain..heh saya non miss ko na ang mcdo..problema wala kaming mahanap na time para lumabas. super hectic ng panahon. patapos nakakatawa pa doon, wala samin makadecied kung saan o kung sino pa sasama... hehe labo talaga namin parehong indecisive...di maka decide... pero still gusto ko pumunta... hmmm naaamoy ko na ang mcdo at masayang kasama si angel kaya magandang match..hehehe

......sige next time nalng uli sana naka help yung sa dyslexia hehe kahit hindi gaano atleast dumami na ang iyong kaalaman about stuf :P