Monday, October 30, 2006
intrams

tapos na ang intrums and sa to say di ako nanalo but still may napanalunan ang juniors so still im happy.

nanalo namin ang basketball, soccer, tabletennis (singles), badminton (singles), swimming (50 back-regine, 100 breast-den-den o_O 50 breast-anj) nako masaya nga ^_^ kahit masakit na lalamunan ko sa pag sigaw.

so after that nag break na weeee...ironicaly na miss ko kaagad friends ko the next day. (which was yesterday). so wala ding ginawa kundi kumain at manood ng tv hayy nakakarelax unang beses ko matulog ng maaga im so happy :P

oo nga pala may nahiraman akong book na tuesdays with morrie...grabe buong time na binabasa ko on the frege of crying. nakakatouch yung mga works nya. galing sibs yung book. hay.

so yan may plano kami nila ged na lumabas sa nov 2 at manood ng movie tapos over night... yay sana matuloy... tapos si angel gusto mag b ball sana nga matuloy din yon...nako nakakatamad na walang ginagawa... pero masaya ^_^...

sige yun lang naman halos...ayoko na mag kwento hahaha byebye oo nga pala pics ng intams dito ---> o_O



eddit:
....late this night added post...(galing somewhere..nakita ko lang...kaya i posted it here)
"sometimes we dont expect things to hurt but then when they happen it suddenly blows us where it hurts the most. the look in peoples eyes seem to count for alot too. i dont know i wish you just didn't make promisses only to break them...only to forget...i wish you didn't say you would then you wouldn't…pretend to care when you wanted to be somewhere else…just leave…im so used to life without you…just a shadow…only hurting me..it painful to say this but I bet you know it to. So stop trying to fool your self by saying I still love you. Sure I owe you a lot, probobly my life infact…but that doesn’t mean I feel those words…It painful and all I can seem to do is try and forget thoes few times you are there…all thoes times…filled with regret, hurt and the feeling that you expect me to love you …don’t make me kiss you…don’t make me hug you… you should know I don’t like that … I’d only move farther away from you…don’t try to make up for lost times…im not that kind of person… be who you are…I don’t mind…I guess im used to the pain already…… don’t worry…I don’t hate you…how could you hate someone whose never there…how can you hate a stranger? "

Wednesday, October 25, 2006
wala lang just bored

IM BOTH A MARIE AND A MICHELLE

Labels: fun, jokes

Monday, October 23, 2006
YAY

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
We passed swimming. me richel ishia and qaeron. that preety nice. for once in my life i have a sport to play. and it's something i love so thats good.

oh yeah there was also the tests today. yeah we had ap and algeb and MY GOD o_O my brain could have been masasacered any less. as in literally my brain muscles were hurting from trying to either understand the question or trying to guess the answer. something also anoyed my ass off and i think a little more of that treatment and im not gonna even try anymore.

everything is actually going preety well. just that there seems to be too much happening. too much studying, too much hw just too much stuf. my brain was never made for studing.

and now i realized something. Its been so long since i've had a dream. i guess i remembered it becuase i was checking my past multiply entries and i saw that of the one i worte on this guy in my dreams. Its been so long since i've last had a dream like that. about him or about anything in fact. and how can someone think in this surcumstances? i wish i could dream again.

they said that dreams are wishes. i guess im not wishing anymore...haha but i am so that doesnt make sense...anyway im confusing my self so lets end it here

Friday, October 20, 2006
REJOICE!!!

after a spell of sadness, disapointments and loneliness, finally i am, in lamens terms, happy. and dull as my reasons may be for being sad, so much the duller are the reason for my happiness. But still I am enjoying this time to the fullest becuase i know it will soon come to and end, as usual.

happy moments come rarely now a days but when they do it all becomes worth it. the good things that happened? well it actually started getting better when we met kokaon sat October 14 2006. who is koka you ask, or as i like to call her kokie/ kokoa. she is sarah's dog. she was so cute and playful (...i really like animals and children). then also because i was amazed that rosalyn said at one point i looked sad. i didn't think i did but i guess i couldn't hide it. shit that i should take up acting lessons. then angel comforted me so that was nice but i couldn't explain why becuase the moment i dicided to share they (our other classies) said we should clean up. funny thing when ever i plan to share to her that always happens, that we have to go somewhere else or that there's no time. i guess when God gives you a sign you should listen. then we bought pizza. yummy... =P~

(first soriee)
then we went to a soriee with 3B (ateneo). where the guys, well most, spoke straight english. every one of my classmates said "nosebleed" and that, not suprisingly, was a new term for me. I guess it means trying to speak english to another english speaking person. and honestly i didn't feel the same. but i guess i understand the way they feel. tagalog comes as difficult to me as english does to them. i dont usualy get to relate to people in the same way, though in someways i still do. anyway to the soriee, we had the ice melter and i was happy i met nic first because, well, we bashed filipino which i never get to do with my friends. my friends always end up giving me the annoyed look which usualy roughly translates to 'nakakasar yung matalino nag rereklamo pero ang talino naman'. -__- it's kind of hard sometimes not being able to complain about the things you want to especialy when they don't want to listen. we talked about kids which is another thing i like. the next guy was jots and we had so much in common it was uncanny. i dont want to enumirate because it might look like we're insane. the next guy kind of annoyed me. yes he was too active and im fine with that but to me he came out as trying to hard and a kiss-up which is something i dont really like. Ironicaly though this was the guy who asked for my ym...-__- why do i attract only the strange ones and never the ones i like? we played truth or dare sometime later and well it was funny but i didn't get to do anything so that was kind of sad but i dont mind it was funny none the less. then i left because my ass of a brother came 30 mins earlier than i expected. oh yeah there was this guy i didn't meet his name was "patrick na maputi..na mestizo" acording to ishia. Every one who met him seems to like him. and here again i can not relate -__- . want to meet him though he seems to get alot of great reviews from my classmates.

then on wensday we had PE!!!!! on of the greatest things yet so far. it was such a relief to do something right for a change. It was also fun to play with my friends and excersise. i wish i didn't skip the last minute of our last game but what can you do. we probably wouldn't have won anyway even if i played :P but it was so fun and one of the best parts was when i was someone fouled me. i had to do two free throws.(we we're 0-2) then with God grace (me saying a little prayer) and my classmates suport (as angel said she was sending me good energy if i remember correctly) I SHOT 2 FREE THROWS...2...hahaha i've never done that before. not only was i able to do two but also in a row and also in a game where it actually counted. Im glad i was able to help my team :D there a really great team. even if we only won once againts the champions and mind that we where the only ones they lost to. so that made the win even sweeter. I like sweet victories. anyway.

we had the chem test and algeb test which i didn't study for, yes crap. oh well come faith into the list and champion me... joke...that was really corny, like sweet corn T_T hahaha.

then we had the geom test the next day and well that was something i studied for around 20-30 mins then i fell a sleep. then got my algeb and chem test results algeb 100 man got two perfect scores and still not exepted screw her -__-. then for chem got 97/98 weee im loving it hehe. that made me happy. that day i also went on ym and talked to some of my friends and well that was nice, only, i left at 10:30 and went up to study then as i closed my eyes i opend to find the sun was up. great hu?

TODAY
well today was great though i would exclude the tests though they did give us some rest and much needed sleep. after the we had lab and after a big sermon which honestly we SLIGHTLY deserved there was actually a fun game and laughter. ate kay and richels' group won. YAY for them they get plus points ^_^ (shes not that bad when you think about it just over dramatic sometimes...we did take really long to get there, honestly) then after that WE FINISHED THE NEWSPAPER...well they did mostly..i tried to help but honestly when i tired i just screws it up so think that was for that best that i didn't cut too much. I did my part though...just not alot more.

THEN pum pum pum pu~um WE HAD SWIMMING TRY-OUTS it was really fun ^_^ i love swimming so much. especially with friends. richel, qaeron, ishia and me went to the swimming place and I was sooo excited and had butterflies. I wasn't sure if i should try out becuase there are so many greats out there but im glad i did ^_^ we had streching first and the sad part was the I couldnt do it properly because I forgot to bring slippers so you can imagine my scorching feet and my underpits where not really a sight. *_* (TMI I know, sorry) then we went swimming weee... free style 50 and any-you-want 50. then we had tryouts... ^_^ that was sooo intimidating. there where so many really good swimmers and that not including looking to the right to the 4th years. ( denise my bussmate is really good, you should see her) some wern't able to finish but im glad some still tried :D i really want to see them swim in the intrums. I wont mention names becuase they might not like it. and when i swam i had time of 53.98/89 not sure seconds weeee aha i was happy :P hehe then we had another breast 50 aslo and sadly i finished but was disqualified because i didn't touch the legde with my two hands at the same time (-__- screw that rule) well my time would have been 1 min and 12 secs. haha that preety good right? well that was fun and as usual me and qaeron did the diving thing over and over again because diving is fun :P. hehe well we learned a new dive from one of the great swimmers well it kind of hurt but it made your glide long. so that was nice. haha then we went to our classrooms after talking a bath. me and richel hung out for awhile then sat beside angel for a while then went home...hayyy

and now im eating sweet corn and typing these words... fun no? well i liked it. :P my hair feels amazingly nice too, what ever shampoo qaeron has really makes your hair feel SOOO good i want it @_@ hahaha :)) im an adict. or mabey it just blend nice with the chlorine. ahhaha i dont care my hair feels nice and everything doesn't suck (just some) so life is good so far

this is my my current status haha just for kicks :P

"I learned what a friend was when you held me as i cried, I learned what love was when all i wanted was for you to be happy, I learned what hurt was when you left my heart untouched"

see haha happy now... sorry bout those almost depressed entries before this. hahaha i over react sometimes. hope you have a nice day/night/afternon

Labels: happy, school

Monday, October 09, 2006
remember

I am very sorry to those (though few you may be) who have been reading my blog. I understand that it has been quite sloppy and anoying. i want to make it matter somehow, yet all that seems to come out are these stupid words.

i dont know anymore why does everyone have to want to change? why is everyone evolving...when they have to leave people behind... change... people seem to like change... and yet all i want to do is to sit down and hug the person to death. all i want is to hold their hand and now the'll be there. but i guess that is too much to ask. too much to ask you friends to stop living for the sake of you being safe. too much to ask them to be sad just so that you wouldn't feel alone. i guess it would just be all too much. one can dream right?

i miss something. though i'd never ask for it. that would be selfish of me. how could you expect someone to give it when they need it more than you? life is peculiar...

today was strange i did nothing. it was like i couldn't move to do anything. like i knew that no matter what happened it would end up to be useless so i guess i quit while i was ahead.

there i go again. im so sorry. it's all i can seem to do these days. blabber. Im at the bottom of the wheel again i guess. and I do know so many more people have huge problems compared to mine. yet i cant help being sad. right now i feel empty...and i dont even know how to fill myself...

something along the lines

i dont actually know what to write... a bit has happened already. well nag fellowship. nag bigay ng grades. tumaba ako. wore a really anoying piece of clothing (which i hope will never happen again). got a wound becuase of a friends story about a certain cockroach that flys in their house which made me trip at the site of a certain frog/jumpping cockroach in my house (twice!!) then well what else... well i got high in my math and reading made me feel like someone who couldnt read and chem made me feel foolish.... yeah...now we can talk about my stupidity...

my stupidity...
just recently someone told me something that ment alot to me and i really thought we were getting to be better friends. but then becuase of my incapacity to be a good and trusting friend the two days exactly after that happened i screwed up... yeah stupid me. first i wasn't able to bring that thing i said i'd bring then next i forgot that i could great her through the telephone...(i only thought of the cellphone and since i didn't have her number i couldn't do it...i forgot i had a telephone and her telephone number -__- ) stupid me... and even if she said she didn't mind... i bet she did... during my birthday she was really there and said happybirthday several times...infact she was the first (through text at 12:00) though my cell was of and i didn't recieve the message i still count it. :'( God im not a good friend. this be should a lesson to all of you. never ask me to be your friend never trust me, never think that im a good person. i feel so guilty. :'( it hurts to be stupid. it sometimes really does, doesn't it? i know i shouldn't have friends i kind of don't deserve them and thei'd be better of with out me. hayyy... yes thats it... leave me alone... i'll only dissapoint you if you give me the chance. so in advance im warning you...don't. hahaha... screawed up another friendship...weee and i was really starting to like this one...

and what would probebly hurt more is that if that person really didn't care coz then that means well i guess it means they never really cared about you...in my opinion... i could be wrong...completely wrong. yeah that's all i can write today... yeah

im getting that feeling i get when i cant write its like my heart hurts for no apparent reason and it just prevents me from writting...so thats all i can say for now... God so many people seemed menteled blocked... -__-

Labels: sad, stupidity

Thursday, October 05, 2006
me, happy...finaly

just so that i can post...hehehe

well lets start of by saying that even though i was so stressed and kind of really depressed these past few days laughter, jokes, my friends really (kind off) made me happy (hugs helped as well) :D hahaha and ofcorse making a fool of myself does help a bit too :)

where should i start. hmmm i guess just to give you a little back ground. see I was at the bottom of the wheel of happiness a few days ago untill yesterday. (well almost yesterday... stress...God that could kill you, moving on) then as wheels go it wheeled on to the happy part...weee and even though we have a solilo to memorize i seem happy and not very stressed :)

the good things that happened today and someonther days today? well i guess we should start with today. one of the things that really made me happy was seeing my classmates happy (after the unfortunate incident of the chem test smiles where so preety to see) then during the cle i did so many stupid things that it could not have gone worse. first well i skiped a part of the end part of the rosary and the worse part of it was that i was part of the prayer group and everyone was speaking so softly so you can just imagine everyone (who was paying attention) could hear me -_- anyway then during the rosary i couldnt stop smiling/laughing becuase of the "hail Mary, Holy Mary" i dont know why i was just trying soo hard to suppres my laughter...hayyyy at least i didn't laugh out loud...hehe then today as in this whole day i was so wishy washy that i lost things while i was sitting down. could anyone be dummer?? hahahaha but that was okay. we also made jokes and laughed at the front row that was nice :) then well nothing too stressful happened today and that was really pleasing.

the day before this i was almost sick... just almost... i had a headache, a cold, and a slight fever but because God never lets me get sick on a school part of the year i got better during the night. weee fun no? well im really greatful i didn't get sick...coz then i wouldn't be happy today now would i? :D hehe

well what else... oh yeah i got a high grade in a subject and im soo happy. (though it was bitter sweet) i was really estatic to recieve it. why?, you ask. well me being me on gets high grades in geom algeb and chem(sometimes) and well we had a helish test and i actually thought i failed and so i was really happy to find out i got 55 which is 95 hehe soo happy thanks to that plus 4 thingy and the bonus. :D anyway we also had pe which was SOOOO MUCHHH FUNNN i want to be in that 5th quarter (hehehe a fifth quarter 5/4 that more than a whole) or overtime. PLEASSEE!!! FRAN!!!! wala lang but if someone else wants it thats fine with me. but you know in basket ball i am so accident prone...well everyone beside me becomes accident prone...i seem to always find a way to hurt them. :( hayy but on a brighter note basket ball is FFUUUNNN and even if we haven't won a game it's still fun. :D really playing with friends and making mistakes and seeing everyone smile is kind of really like a drug for me...(unless filipino patapos test, God that hurts.)

>oh yeah me and ishia decided that if regine alows that even though we didnt attend the meeting mag try outs kami sa swimming. I LOVE SWIMMING i really do :D hehehe it relaxing axcilirating (if i knew how to spell) and i love it... though im afraid of fishes so that makes it kind of ironic..in a way...or not... hehe. also something made me happy a friend of mine remembered an advice i gave her last year. wala lang that means alot to me. i hope i didn't discourage her by not having the gust to try out in the first place. but now i will so i hope she still believes in what i told her before..."mag tryouts ka tingnan mo ako di magaling mag swimming pero dahil gusto ko magswim magtryouts a ko." .... well thats what it was i think... hehe :D anyway...

i bought a book and i cant read it :(( so many things happening =(( wala lang grabe im itching to open it and read through its beatiful pages. hayyy... oo nga pala oct 13 daw yung lalabas nung 13th book of lemony snicket... weee "the end" daw title. pag lumabas na may pera na akong save para doon (from my birthday money hinid ko gagamitin hangang lumabas yung book) hahaha kung may gusto mag hiram sakin sabihin nyo lang :D basta wag nyo lang sirain i'll lend it :D sige yun nalang soo happy sana di masyado mag turn ng ganyon ka fast yung happiness wheel ko :P

Labels: book, happy

marie on 6:01 PM
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Monday, October 02, 2006
shape

is it Black paper with white paint or black paint on white paper?

...do you get it?

because I dont...

marie on 11:33 PM
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Sunday, October 01, 2006
sometimes...

sometimes we do stuf to see who remembers

who sees, who shows you that they give a damn
sometimes when we do things like that, it hurts
and we feel stupid for even trying

sometimes we feel like letting go of it all
sometimes we feel like being alone
sometimes we just want to stop hurting people
and sometimes saying sometimes is just too much and too little

sometimes we feel like ending it
sometimes we feel stupid for thinking so
sometimes we feel filled up so much that everything seems pointless
and sometimes they are

sometimes we empty things to see whats really in the canister
and sometimes there's nothing there

sometimes we look into the sky to find a friend
sometimes all we get is rain

sometimes we feel like all we need is a hug
and when there's no one
sometimes that want just made you feel worse

sometimes we get stressed and say all the wrong things
then sometimes we imagine an island to get away
sometimes this makes us feel alone
yet sometimes it seems safer

sometimes we give in and acept people
and even though all they give is happiness
sometimes all we want is for them to hurt us
sometimes, simply, for the excuse to not anymore take risks

sometimes we want stupid things to make us happy
though they are shiny and bright
sometimes those stupid things make us bleed

sometimes we think we can just end an addiction
and make everything seem normal
but sometimes we get cought in our lies

sometimes you want to stop the rain from falling
coz it makes you feel weak and stupid
but sometimes the rain just keeps on going
ruinning your what you held most dear

sometimes when you close your eyes you can imagine the world w/o you
sometimes that world seems better...

*note :i guess the post after this wasn't the last after all...but i felt like letting out some steam...but this is .not a poem by the way...I don't think i've got the talent for that but it is something... i hope..and not just some words put together to form nonsensicl sentences/phrases. by the way dont steal from me not that there's anything to steal... just don't haha just felt like saying that :)..sometimes the greatest gift is not found in any physical form...sometimes it is simply in remembering... hahaha does that make sense? anyway this might be the last it might not.. i guess it just depends...as almost everthing in this world does...it all depends...

marie on 6:15 PM
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it's kind of strange. so much has happend yet nothing seems of great value... and yet if you asked me i wouldn't give it up for the world.

things, some people say, happen for a reason. Stuf has happened, that was bound to happen right, and im not sure where to start. this being potentionaly the last entry for this blog I would like to give it some value, to mean something to not only me but to those who have been reading it. and yet sadly I can't even bring myself to admit that i know what I want to wright. that im just afriad to admit that if i write it it would seem like crap..or something to that note. (and ironicaly by writing that here i officialy state it and there for acknowlage the thought...haha stupidity can reach higher levels)

well i should stop blabering and get on to writing.

for the past two or three days there has been a storm called milenya/yo. and so far it has been a pain in the ass. yes. i said ass. becuase not only has it destroyed so many things (the trees in our village and other places, the banners and stuf like that, people who got hurt and others) and has taken away the electricity and water form my home but it has also officialy started my 16th year in this world as being something as a pain in others life. wait before i get into some moppy attitude lets take a gander at all the fun things i did this black out...ironically it wasnt a black out because there was alot of black... so that wasn't out..maybe it should be called a light out...since the light is the ones that's out...diba?

FUN THINGS:
1. we made wax balls (super fun but painful)
2. we ate by candle light
3. saw the stupidity of men...(not sure if that goes on this category but hell its there anyway
4. bought books
5. read chap 7 of ap book
6. got another pimple (yes im vain)
7. sister had a hair cut
8. we played tongits (how ever its spelled)
9. slept in the dark
10. called people up for no reason at all
11. missed something

anyway thats what happened during the blackout

after that (that was thurs and fri) during sat the electricity came back and went to school to study. personaly it was kind of boring. really. the teachers didn't teach to well. What could you expect from the first day right? oh well i'll give them another week or so to get their act together.

for dinner that day we ate turbo-chicken... and mushroom soup from a can...weee...

well thats all... today at sunday i had my hair cut , wanted really short...got something else instead. and ate alot. i dont feel like writing anymore. and if i did it would just be there to make you ask me something so instead i wont and that's all there is to be said anyway.

i guess i wasn't able to bring it justice after all...

sharing sucks...

12th angel came at the right time... it's an amazing co-incidence (i cant spell...just sound it out)

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