Tuesday, June 19, 2007
mendoza is fine with me

school has started and already i fall asleep at the slightest idea of learning something new. my eyes get droopy and all i can think about is how heavy my eyelids are getting and how i seem to hear nothing. then when i do get a chance to sleep, during recess or lunch, i cant seem to even get a nap in because my stupid body cant seem to get the grip what the right time of sleeping is :|

our class is okay. some of our other classmates got changed though and mean of me to say to those who came back (yung mga nawala nung third year) i feel really bad to those who have to get used to a different section so close to the end. it seems so pointless to make ties that would (almost surely) break before two years end. some times i wished we could just have the old section but then again what about those people who were happy to come back? i guess it sort of mean to them to wish them away for the happiness of others.

our schedule though is another thing that needs improvement. it is one of the most suckiest things i have ever seen in my life. i mean why do i have to get home at 5:30 pm every single day at the earliest? damn. oh well... the with the fact that clubs is now the first subject for Friday means many will and are complaining about the stupidity of it. they have their reasons i know, those stupid people who skipped classes are to blame :| damn them. now though im already dreading starting the subjects and figuring out what my course will be for college. thats just it im confused as usual.

and with me feeling sleepy most of the hours of the day and the weather being the ass that it is, i kind of miss my ym days where all i had to do was stay up and wait for my friends to go online and i got to hear how they were doing. its only been two days but sometimes its frightening to think if this is how things are already are and its not even the start of the actual activities yet, how bad will things get once were all studying, doing projects and assignments. i guess if i ever never again get to talk to my friends like before then i'll be writing here more often.

oh yeah i remember the first day where our teacher assumed my hair was dyed(?) and then i also had to raise my hand (mine being the only one up) to show that i lacked the capacity to speak tagalog as fluent as they do. :| i kind of get a feeling that things with her as my teacher wont be so good. and lastly i'd like to complain about my stupid common average name :|

michelle marie mendoza :|

when have three really and very plain average names been put together? i have a hard enough time with richel and michelle sounding alike and now i have to deal with another marie being right beside me. and there other people are also more "called upon" so i end up like the idiot who turned her head when she wasnt the one even being called. it makes me want to answer to only mendoza. maybe then i wont get confused who's being called. thank god the other mendoza's didnt come to our sections then then i wouldnt even have one name to pick as to not confuse others and myself. (i do not in anyway hate nor dislike richel or marie :) )

haaay i guess a new year will always have its ups and downs... and all you can do is deal with them as they come your way.

next time again... if i write to regularly you know i've practically lost contact with the people i used to share to. :)

well its not like anyone reads this anymore anyway... :| i guess this is just now a way to let things out. you could call it my safety net just in case i dont hold on to my friends enough :) or they forget to hold back :P

oh yeah... there are somethings about summer i've forgotten to write down here in this blog, some because i told someone else about it or i just didn't have the time, but maybe thats for the better so i'll forget they've happened or been thought of. anyway :)) okay that comment doesn't fit anywhere here...oh well


...see you when ever again