Tuesday, June 26, 2007
school blues

ive forgotten how stressful school really is and now the only way i seem to be passing the time is by telling myself there are only a few days left in the week. i cant believe how sleepy i am now a days, it doesn't really let me concentrate on my classes. damn it. there is this one teacher that acts like we all know exactly what shes talking about. she talks so fast...they all seem to speak too fast.


im not yet too stressed... maybe just a little psychotic.

this school year is different as this summer was different as well. i guess now is a time for change. a time for people to grow and sometimes you cant help when some people grow in different directions. its simply a change of heart and a change of mind. people want different things as time moves on and we cant always hold on as long as we can. the answer, sometimes, is in letting go and seeing how far we drift away from each other because with distance there can be more growth.

im a bit scared about the subjects this year. i sort of expect myself to do well in the math department and hopefully okay in the science (since math is a big portion of it) and in the other departments i hope to do my best. but the chances of things going as i expect them is like betting in the lottery and expecting to win. yes, someone has to win the prize but many of them dont and many are left with an empty pocket and an angry spouse. haaay..well if i fail this year i have no one to blame but myself....

okay so my thoughts are allover the place right now. see some one is really pushing my buttons. i guess unintentionally but still i can only take so much.

anyway...im going now...no one reads you anyway... oh well