Friday, July 06, 2007
go save yourself, no one’s coming

It so stupid to expect someone to save you

To expect people to be there

when you were the one who left

to wish you were closer

when you do nothing about it

to look a stranger in the eye

and expect them to be looking back

its just simply stupid isn’t it?

To expect someone to love you

When you don’t love them enough

And you barely even love yourself

thinking, just thinking. whats so wrong with that right? sometimes i just wish i didn't do stupid things but i guess that inevitable for most. maybe closing my eyes will solve my problems but honestly i know already... and it wont really ...I've tried that and it doesnt actually make a difference. its still going to be there when i open my eyes. sometimes it leaves...but that only happens when you wanted them to stay.... i would be lying if i said i didnt know why im screwing with my life, though i cant explain it in the most scientific way, i have a basic understanding of why. see...screwing it over is so easy, you just have to stop caring and just do, or rather more appropriately, do nothing. i've got to save myself soon, im not really sure how much longer i can hang from the edge...or how much longer i would give a damn till it doesn't matter anymore which direction i go.