Thursday, May 03, 2007
10th summer entry

im not me here...i dont know me here...me is happy here and theres something different with her tone. its sometimes frightening to see people change into someone else...thats well also them.
i guess this is just a warning...

its been a while i guess :) its may already right? well actually its only been a few days but i guess alot has happened for me. a lot in a sense that they dont usually happen to me. well my father and two sisters with my older sisters friends went to a farm my lola had made her family which, thankfully enough, included her grand kids. damn theres even a nice pool where you can waddle(?), float, swim(??), soak and i guess other things you can imagine which include water, stairs, filters and a bunch of chemicals such as chlorine and some powder stuf too >:) MWAHAAHAhahahaha. anyway so what was i saying oh yeah they left already and here i am alone...in this house with my mother who comes home later then 10 so it's like shes not even here, but you know who's complaining :), my brother who uses the computer a lot and the ates who make food and clean the house :)... a blast right? weeeee (note sarcastic tone :D) but you know honestly it okay nothing major is different only that i feel (is it wrong of me to say?) more at home. i dont know, i do miss though that my sister (the younger one) memorizes the times of my shows and i dont usually have to look if its started already. now i missed a few of my shows already darn but what can you do right? bad memory but its okay its not the end of the world because i can live with out my shows :)

anyway on to the real thing that is really making me uber-duber happy as in up into high sky, not be sacred and just start skipping happy....well not that happy but it just fun to think that i am that happy. so what happened? well i'll start with the day because i am just that sadistic >:)

so today is the second to the last day of my chem camp experience. we had that last experiment yesterday which was making icecream. you'd think it was fun right? well i can say it kind of was

[some might not like swearing so just skip this paragraph :) its asdadas so when that stops you can read again :) ]


:)) well because my group, we stupidly forgot to bring the ingredients and we had to go to the store and buy some and it was so fucked up annoying when they just wouldn't try something that would only take us a few minutes and probably save us a lot of time and not only that but also this one person kept on complainning that we were the last in to hand in the ice cream and i kept saying thats because we started really late and she'd say okay lang yan. so i was like what the fuck you as hole???? im not the one complaining im trying to explain to your fucked up mind why were the last... -_- it might not seem much well that was because i was already fired up because they were 'afraid' to ask the people at the lunch place if they had milk and sugar :| ugh... being pissed at some people is a hard thing to do so im over it :) some people i guess are just different from what you want them to be

so today we got our prized from the games that were played during the duration of the camp and they were Pringles, so that was good :)) then we were told to pick a number so we would have a place to put our posters. see there was a poster making contest were in we as a group would a poster, makes sense right? then we would line up and explain to the 4 judges separately what our poster meant and answer also the questions they had for us. easy peasy no? well i looked at the sheet of paper and i saw number 14 first and before i could say it my friend(?)/groupmate sheila picked 14 too so i was fine with that :) we were the only one with only two members. so we went to our places...

[oh yeah a little history first before i proceed so that you would have a chance to fully understand to what extent of surprise and happiness i felt then. (*you may skip this part :)]

one the first day of the chem camp i was this stranger to all the people there. i was just staring at them and reading my book. (at different times because honestly thats sort of impossible to do at the same time) and anyway fast forward to us playing games on the field across the laboratory. i met this girl who said hi to me and met her friend and another person. all girls. so here we were attaching string to a plastic cup and we were concentrating and once we finished (second place mind you hehe :) ) we sat down. i looked across and i saw this boy and damn he looked really cute, well my kind of cute. :P and well i dont know...i guess its just nice to see cute guys? not that i was looking, i just saw and while our group 'volunteered' to play the next game he sat on the grass. as we were playing, when ever i had to face the crowd, i couldn't help but (but didn't always) look that way...hmmm a sign? :)) joke anyway i was supposed to be in A class with my other 'friends' and then suddenly when they read it again my name was changed now not only did i look like a lier to the people i just met but also now i dont know...there were two Mendoza's in one class. later i found out he wasn't in my class but that was okay it wasn't the end of the world. so a lot later :)) ...almost a week and a half later :)), my 'friend' that was my group mate that sort of pisses me of later :) (the story before this the one where i swear a lot) tells us she has a crush in the other section im like talaga, sino? then she describes him and it perfectly matches cute guy and i was like -_- so? joke :)) i don't really remember what i was thinking then. i was thinking something for sure, i just dont remember. back to story :)


at our places we sat down and waited then guess who was group number 7, the group right across us? well it was cute guys group and i was kind of happy because that was such a cute coincidence. so many factors could have changed that outcome but oh well it did happen :). then after awhile when the second judge asked us if we were only two i said yes...after the questioning and reporting to the judge number 2 he asked me if dalawa lang ba talaga kayo? honestly i was shocked, i mean that implied he was listening to our report and that he didnt ask my other group mate because he wanted to ask me. okay reading to much into it but what the hell :)) so we talked a bit. he said our poster looked nice even though we just made it in one day, he said he could draw but only modern(?) stick figures which was kind of funny :)) then he told me about how come he wasnt in the class picture and about how they had the most unique poster. he then said "jules" and put out his hand for a shake and i said " ah...marie" and we shook hands... while we had our short conversation i noticed his smile, which was really honestly just cute and sweet, his sparkling eyes and an outgoing nature but i also saw that he was afraid of the quiet and stillness of being alone in a crowd. its sometimes sad how some people are like that but thats okay..to his his own right? or something like that :P

okay so this is an interlude the first day of our experts thing when i went down i saw him and headed straight for the stairs again and you know what happened? he called me out. he remembered my name and i honestly felt my heart stop for a moment. anyway just to justify myself he was the only guy who talked to me during the chem camp just out of want...and not that we had a group work together he was also the only boy who i actually held hands with there too...if that counts as holding his hand... :)) okay so enough justifying myslef on with the sort :)

so anyway after awhile we went to the glassmaking guy on the other end of the two adjoined classrooms. (ommygad ang haba pa nito im soo sorry...) this part was uber fun because we got to see glass being formed in different shapes and sizes. it was really fun and interesting and it was nice to sit down and be frightened to the outer core just because a glass thing might break and shatter into tiny pieces one of which would enter your skin and make you bleed and cause an infection. whew a least that didn't happen so that made it more fun. i also learned that glass is so much better then plastic because it doesn't give of toxins and is reusable always :) so that was nice to know and very informative.

then after that and two more talks with the judges they went home. i on the other hand waited at mcdo for my brother. lets not talk about the embarrassment i felt because i saw the childhope thing and i felt guilty... i really wanted to join but my schedule just didn't allow it...so i sat down ate my lunch and ice cream and waited. waited. waited. so in short i waited. labo... then i get a text from my brother. "want to commute by yourself" and i did... and im happy because i finally did it by my self :D weeee i mean i was afraid that i would get lost but it's only two rides so there wasn't that much trouble opportunities. i also wasn't so afraid because i guess cute guy talked to me. not a crush mind you he's just a cute boy :) so there... thats my day. fun no? so many things happened for me and i am left happy :) so bye bye while i watch tv :D

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